almost there

[magicalpotato]

Now, I have been doing well lately. Things are back to something like normal with me and the dude (but how normal were they ever?). Last night Jessie, Adam, Spencer and myself went on a "ghosthunting" trip that was really us just driving around to different towns for five hours. It was awesome. It was what I had been missing for a while. At one point, somewhere near Waynesville, it was so beautiful outside that Adam stopped on the side of the road and we got out just to stand there. It was some kind of back road in a valley, and we were surrounded by fields. I could hear a creek running somewhere off to the right of us, and the moon was so bright. Complete peace and happiness. Now I'm somewhat more willing to let this semester go. Just that one night gave me a kind of closure and reasurance. I'm still kind of bummed now and then, though. Not as much sad as melancholy. "What if" are words that stab me in the stomach now and then. But, hey, I should be used to that, right? So tell me to shut up, will you? Just kick me or something. Or better yet, find me a cute boy to mess around with...

peace and top five lists