Hey ya
I know nobody reads this anymore, but I think that may be why I am writing here. I just finished reading through my old posts, and god was I bi polar or what?? actually I am pretty sure I was on bi polar meds at the time... guess they didn't work out so well :) Lets see I found out awhile ago I have something called pcos, and I take a daily cocktail of meds which make me feel sick :( But no i know why the bi polar stuff didnt work, it is actually a hormonal imbalance. reading through my old post i mentioned cutting myself alot so here is an update, I haven't cut in over 2 years, not sice b4 i got with myra. We are moving again this time to Santa Barbara CA which is awesome because I get the water back and am a little drive from all my friends and the people I miss so much. Things have been off and on for me, I am the heaviest I have ever been which is causing more healh problems, I am eating right and working out everyday, but with pcos they say loseing weight is like riding a bike up a wall with wind in your face. So I am giving it all I got and hopeing for the best. I also may not be able to have kids since it is an overy thing :( That thought alone depresses the hell out if me, the good news is we don't know yet... seeing as I am not trying to get preggo right now. The other good news is many women with this get preggo with fertility treatments. So there is hope :) I am pretty content with life, things are going really good with Myra and everything else, except the minor depression attackts of a sad fat girl. But damnit I will overcome this, I have been fat since 3rd grade(oddly enough when hormones start to enter your body) and I will be damned if I leave fat :) Anyway, I think I am done rambeling for now, and even though nobody is reading this I will say goodnight anyway. Love you (to my friends that may be reading)
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