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"Suicide hotline may I help you?"
"yea well uhh I'm about to fuckin kill myself.."
"Listen you dont wanna do that ok, you dont wanna do that"
"I'm gonna, you dont, you dont even know, theres so many reason why i dont even need to be here"
"You dont wanna do that you wanan be on earth"
"i'm gonna put a fucking slug in my head"
"Calm down with me"
"Fuck that shit dog, I got a gun right now its right under my fuckin chin"
"no please"
"Fuck that"
"Take it away from your chin"
"I'm gonna blow my head all over the fuckin ceiling"
There aint no point to me wakin up, everybodys time that I'm takin up, I got nobody, there ain a shoulder near, I can't stay here an its colder there, "no", I dont wanna look back cause its gonna hurt, I'm gonna slice my wrist an its gonna squirt, For me everybodys holdin hate, I get backstab ya'll holdin the stake, there no roads to take, I'm in a circle drive, bustin up myself but I'm tryin to survive, I'll dissapoint you, I'm there to let you down, so I aint go no more homeboys comin around, you dont understand so dont fuckin say you do, i swear to god i'll put a fuckin slug in you, i'm the only one, the lonley one, at home a lone loadin a gun thinkin why not..."why not? why would you want to die? you have feelings inside your head ok? I udnerstand that, when you have depression you have a void inside your heart ok? and your heart means everything in world ok?" ...I got court comin up cause i stole a truck, got a bitch pregnant and I'm broke as fuck, I wanna get high but I got piss tests, always numero uno on gods shit list, get this, there aint no clothes I look good in, I'm the mother fuckin big red train that couldnt, got no family I stole their shit, restraining orders an i still wont quit, i hit rock bottom an then i fell in a whole, then i fell through the floor of that whole some more, i've been missin for a year an no ones lookin," I am " i got beat down an my shit stolen, i look around an i just see more of the same, same old bullet through my same old brain.."I understand everything your goin through, I have been there myself, OK? I mean your pain is my pain, I wanna be your friend, me an you, friends..." I dream about loppin heads off with a shovel, the dreams are gettin serious think I'm in trouble, I dotn hold memory for more then an hour, i'm tired as fuck drained of power, I aint halfway there an i'm all out of time, i'm like a crushed lightbulb all out of shine, i've been around an no place is home, i wanna see the other side when this shit goes through my dome, i'm butt naked, i've been jackin off gettin drunk, its my last hours who gives a fuck, it dont matter I'm doin this shit in the garage so its easier for them to clean my head splodge, this bitch I loved, I hope she finds me, still up in this chair with my thoughts behind me, ya kno...*Beep* yo hold on a second...
"hello..?"
"hey wassup"
"where you at?"
"I'm right down the street with my girl shannon"
"Word word"
"we were wonderin if we could stop by?"
"Yea shit yea..."
"really?"
"Yea just stop by,"
"alright see you in a bit"
"Hey hey! yo "
"Yea I know bring some blunts"
"Shiit yea..aight bye"
our father who art in heaven, hallow be thy name
"Suicide hotline may I help you?"
"yea well uhh I'm about to fuckin kill myself.."
"Listen you dont wanna do that ok, you dont wanna do that"
"I'm gonna, you dont, you dont even know, theres so many reason why i dont even need to be here"
"You dont wanna do that you wanan be on earth"
"i'm gonna put a fucking slug in my head"
"Calm down with me"
"Fuck that shit dog, I got a gun right now its right under my fuckin chin"
"no please"
"Fuck that"
"Take it away from your chin"
"I'm gonna blow my head all over the fuckin ceiling"
There aint no point to me wakin up, everybodys time that I'm takin up, I got nobody, there ain a shoulder near, I can't stay here an its colder there, "no", I dont wanna look back cause its gonna hurt, I'm gonna slice my wrist an its gonna squirt, For me everybodys holdin hate, I get backstab ya'll holdin the stake, there no roads to take, I'm in a circle drive, bustin up myself but I'm tryin to survive, I'll dissapoint you, I'm there to let you down, so I aint go no more homeboys comin around, you dont understand so dont fuckin say you do, i swear to god i'll put a fuckin slug in you, i'm the only one, the lonley one, at home a lone loadin a gun thinkin why not..."why not? why would you want to die? you have feelings inside your head ok? I udnerstand that, when you have depression you have a void inside your heart ok? and your heart means everything in world ok?" ...I got court comin up cause i stole a truck, got a bitch pregnant and I'm broke as fuck, I wanna get high but I got piss tests, always numero uno on gods shit list, get this, there aint no clothes I look good in, I'm the mother fuckin big red train that couldnt, got no family I stole their shit, restraining orders an i still wont quit, i hit rock bottom an then i fell in a whole, then i fell through the floor of that whole some more, i've been missin for a year an no ones lookin," I am " i got beat down an my shit stolen, i look around an i just see more of the same, same old bullet through my same old brain.."I understand everything your goin through, I have been there myself, OK? I mean your pain is my pain, I wanna be your friend, me an you, friends..." I dream about loppin heads off with a shovel, the dreams are gettin serious think I'm in trouble, I dotn hold memory for more then an hour, i'm tired as fuck drained of power, I aint halfway there an i'm all out of time, i'm like a crushed lightbulb all out of shine, i've been around an no place is home, i wanna see the other side when this shit goes through my dome, i'm butt naked, i've been jackin off gettin drunk, its my last hours who gives a fuck, it dont matter I'm doin this shit in the garage so its easier for them to clean my head splodge, this bitch I loved, I hope she finds me, still up in this chair with my thoughts behind me, ya kno...*Beep* yo hold on a second...
"hello..?"
"hey wassup"
"where you at?"
"I'm right down the street with my girl shannon"
"Word word"
"we were wonderin if we could stop by?"
"Yea shit yea..."
"really?"
"Yea just stop by,"
"alright see you in a bit"
"Hey hey! yo "
"Yea I know bring some blunts"
"Shiit yea..aight bye"
our father who art in heaven, hallow be thy name