Come back as fire, an burn all the liars, leave a blanket of ash on the ground

[magic_hat]

/////\\\\\*\\//*//\\~~~~~I think dissapointment is one of the worst feelings out there. My main problem with my life is that I set myself up to be dissapointed by everything. I have such high hopes for everyone I know, and everything I do. Then it comes down to it and no ones as good as you think they are, and your not as good as you think you are, and you end up running into a home depot with a battle axe when your 46 screaming at the top of your lungs about a do it yourself project. I think thats why old men have do it yourself projects. If you have a *project* to keep you busy, who cares about how much your job sucks, your family sucks, your friends suck, etc. If you have something to look forward to doing this weekend, then who gives a fuck about anything. Wouldnt it be really weird if everyone was upfront with eachother 100% of the time. Like if you couldnt speak, an twist your words into something acceptable, an everyone just knew exactly what everyone thought. I dont think any of us would have friends, because everyone has alternate agendas, an thoughts they keep to themselves, an thoughts they keep amongst a group of people. Its all fucked up. I wish I had the balls to just tell everyone exactly what I thought. I wish I had a turkey baster full of heroin. I'd just like pump it into my stomach, an sit down an chill out and get some shit straight in my head. I woke up with really bad heart burn last night I dont know what thats about, I have it now too. I never get heart burn. Ehh whatever fuck you live journal. I feel like such a douche bag every time I write in this thing. But I must write in it because its healthy, an people can listen to me bitch even when Im' not around them.

ehhh so bored. (_|_)

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at least i have my maturity...