Filling my lungs w/poision to make the mad hauntings stop, if only for a night

[magic_hangerelf]

So I havent posted in a REALLY long time. It seems like everytime I sit down to write something thats been going on in my life, I cant ever find the words to explain it. thats how ive been feeling lately. I just cant find the words to explain how my lifes going. there so much going on at the same time that I dont know what I feel anymore.

so theres this party, adam's 18th b-day.(a friend from school)

hes freaking rich(like everyone cept me at cooper) and hes having his party at the miramar hotel in LosOlas.

I was invited, and I really wanna go. but I couldnt find a girl to go w/me and watch out for me

(in case ur wondering why I want that, it's BYOB and I know A LOT of guys thats gonna be there and wanna try and "hook up" w/me that night. so I wanna girl there to help watch out for me and make sure I dont do anything ill regret later)

so since I dont have one, Im not sure I should go. but then again most of the guys are my friends, so I would hope they wouldnt do anything to bad.

I really wanna go, but im not sure I should. Itd be my first party since ive been here and ive been waiting for one for awhile now.

I think the real reason I wanna go is cuz I just wanna forget for a night........

do you guys think I should go? give me ur opinions.