Wide open spaces
I think for a lot of us this whole new going to college experience was something unexpected and something you can't prepare for. I figured I'd come here and fit right in with everyone, becuase I love being my crazy self and meeting new people. The opposite actually happened for me. I had a pretty crappy welcome week to start my year off. With my guinea pig dying the day I left, buying the wrong books and walking 35 minutes each way to return them, and all this other shit. I dunno. It's been easy to dwell on that and let it get me down. Even going home for that weekend didn't at al turn out like I planned. That's just it though, I have to stop planning out how I want my life to be, and just live it. I can't rely on people to come around and change my life. I have to do it myself because I'm the only one who will. At the same time, I've realized how pessimistic I've been. So yeah things didn't turn out the way I thought. Instead of making all new friendships, which I have met people-I know I'm sounding antisocial, but rather I think I am strengthening the friendships I already have and didn't put much into. I have been spending a lot of time with people from walled lake, but it's not necessarily as bad as I thought. I dunno. I'm just realizing a lot right now with what I need to do to make myself me again. I think I lost touch with the me I love, and I never should have done that. Growing up means adding to what's already there, not throwing it away, but that's what I was doing. So if I've been weird lately, maybe more distant and less energetic, that's why, and it's all me. I love all you guys tons, and I'll be here for you for anything you ever need.
"If you don't like something, change it. If you can't change it, change the way you think about it.
"If you don't like something, change it. If you can't change it, change the way you think about it.