How can I ever be certain?
Now that everything is done and blown over, I still feel like I have to worry. I'm not worried about what will be said be some people...that is out of my control. It's just that some people who I trusted more than anything, who I always used as a backbone just dissappeared from my life. How can I be sure that this kinda shit won't happen again with my friends now? How can I trust anyone if the one person who I trusted more than anything could throw away so much without a care in the world? I just feel like now things are too good to be true and I'm so afraid that it will only last so long, that the sparkle will wear off and things will go back to the usual shit. I'm secure with myself, but I'm not secure with others. I can't control anyone and sometimes I hate that, because they can control me in a heartbeat. I dunno....just a thought...