NYE 2010 - reminiscence
I'm currently sitting at my desk in the office, it is New Years Eve 2010, shortly after 6 pm. Outside I can see firworks going off. I love watching fireworks.
Every year on New Years Eve I remember what the past year was like for me. I don't know if it is like that for everyone, but I am doing it. I don't even have to force it, like sitting down and tell myself ... so, what did the past year bring to you? No, it just comes naturally. I remember the good things and the bad ones.
2010 is most definitely the year, that for me will always be connected to Adam. It was an amazing year, I had so much fun seeing his career evolve and I felt like being a very small part of it when I got to see him in concert. Those were some of the happiest moments in 2010. And I am so grateful I had the chance to be there and experience that. And I know he'll never hear it and I know there are thousands of people who have told him already, but: Thank You, Adam! For bringing me so much joy and happiness in 2010. I hope there'll be much more of your music and entertainment in the future. I can't wait to see it all!
One thing that Adam brought (back) into my life in 2010 was writing. I did write in the past, but no one ever got to read it. I had fun with it, but I realized it was pointless. Now I got back to it and so far I have a good feeling. I know I'll never be a really good writer, I'm not creative enough, not imaginative enough. And that's okay, I just write, when I have the feeling, that I really want to tell a story. And that just feels really good.
There was one important thing I realized in 2010. I am single for 3 years now and I don't think this will ever change again. Or at least not, anytime soon. And what I realized is, that it doesn't matter to me. Many people, including friends and family, keep saying that I'll find someone and that I shouldn't give up. But I realized - and, to be honest, I knew this long ago, but in the course of this year I really realized it - that I am happy all by myself. I don't need another person to be happy. Maybe I'm a loner, I'm pretty sure I am, but I am a happy loner. I don't want to have to deal with someone else's life or problems or family or something.
BUT on the other hand there's one thing I really want: some day I want to become a mom. I know that will be difficult to do without a man and I think I probably should take some time to figure this whole thing out! LOL
Many people have New Years resolutions. I don't know if that makes sense, since most of those resolutions last for 3 or 4 months and then it gets too hard to make them come true or whatever. So, I'm not going to resolve to do something big or achieve something unachievable. I just hope, that 2011 will be a good as a year as 2010 was for me. Because it was a really good year! :D
Happy New Year to all of you!
Every year on New Years Eve I remember what the past year was like for me. I don't know if it is like that for everyone, but I am doing it. I don't even have to force it, like sitting down and tell myself ... so, what did the past year bring to you? No, it just comes naturally. I remember the good things and the bad ones.
2010 is most definitely the year, that for me will always be connected to Adam. It was an amazing year, I had so much fun seeing his career evolve and I felt like being a very small part of it when I got to see him in concert. Those were some of the happiest moments in 2010. And I am so grateful I had the chance to be there and experience that. And I know he'll never hear it and I know there are thousands of people who have told him already, but: Thank You, Adam! For bringing me so much joy and happiness in 2010. I hope there'll be much more of your music and entertainment in the future. I can't wait to see it all!
One thing that Adam brought (back) into my life in 2010 was writing. I did write in the past, but no one ever got to read it. I had fun with it, but I realized it was pointless. Now I got back to it and so far I have a good feeling. I know I'll never be a really good writer, I'm not creative enough, not imaginative enough. And that's okay, I just write, when I have the feeling, that I really want to tell a story. And that just feels really good.
There was one important thing I realized in 2010. I am single for 3 years now and I don't think this will ever change again. Or at least not, anytime soon. And what I realized is, that it doesn't matter to me. Many people, including friends and family, keep saying that I'll find someone and that I shouldn't give up. But I realized - and, to be honest, I knew this long ago, but in the course of this year I really realized it - that I am happy all by myself. I don't need another person to be happy. Maybe I'm a loner, I'm pretty sure I am, but I am a happy loner. I don't want to have to deal with someone else's life or problems or family or something.
BUT on the other hand there's one thing I really want: some day I want to become a mom. I know that will be difficult to do without a man and I think I probably should take some time to figure this whole thing out! LOL
Many people have New Years resolutions. I don't know if that makes sense, since most of those resolutions last for 3 or 4 months and then it gets too hard to make them come true or whatever. So, I'm not going to resolve to do something big or achieve something unachievable. I just hope, that 2011 will be a good as a year as 2010 was for me. Because it was a really good year! :D
Happy New Year to all of you!