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so im really tired but i cant sleep and having a best friend is like having a sugar daddy or atleast having my best friend is like having a sugar daddy and for the first time in a long time i was spoiled today and im pushing myself through this book and i wonder why cause its really maybe amazing and its funny because as i read it speaks of events happening in my life right now and sometimes i just want to take notes so that i can live and learn and live and learn the right way and maybe me and steven would be healither if we did it the right way sometimes i think about stuff like that and ive been kinda the weird kind of busy lately like busy in my head thinking about all of the things that are coming fast once again i have to make a list of things to do like call my dad for much owed money and dye my hair before school starts and make a wish list of the all things i want for my 18th birthday from all my friends i want house warming gifts like hand me downs and throw pilliows you know something old something new something barrowed something blue and from my boy well i just want an education from him in fact maybe some spice cause sometimes you really bore me and its nish good when you get bored in a relationship brennon called me tonight reminding me that things arent easy and brian called me tonight reminding me that things are easy and tomorrow we have plans to go shopping off central with his newly legal driving and buy smelly insense and trendy things from hong kong and flirt my way into a job at infinidys end and im feeling like butter lately that i look fat my hair is played feel and i dont know what to do about it im sick and wishing i looked like that or had this for my 18th birthday i want a laptop something nice you know because ive never had anything nice before and i also want to go to disney land but that wont happen because i dont want to settle for flordia and i want money so i can get a tattoo and see real live (hot) titties and finally be able to walk into the dirty section of video junktion