Only God Knows
For all the people that are reading this today... i say hi .... my names ali and im here today to tell you what is on my mind ..... dan were should i start ?????? ohhhh k lets see the end of summer ... ohhh k well as some may know i have a girlfriend whom i really enjoy being with shes got kind of short hair umm i dont really know it i hould tell you the color because she dies it ... well right now its kinda like blondish ... i dunno .. anywayy shes a really fun girl to be with all the stupidretarted things we do , draging eachother of the floor doing stupid crap etc. welll ....
i realized today ...... is this for real? your probly reading this thinking hmm your retarded and who cares but honestly this isnt just for me its for you guys out there too i,m here tonight telling you love is a very very powerfull thing it hurts .... i stayed up weeks crying myself to sleep time and time again .... just for her ... a girl with multive personalies,kind of hippie wardrobe, cutest smile of life ... well it turns out i dont think she loves me .... im actually ready to break down and cry right now but i really really do ......
she wrote about this boy named cooper, ohh right well heres the story me and her broke up i dumped her because i was stupidly confused with drama that.... she actually started she sent pictue to this boy ... and i am no longer friends with them but she did and she cant lie because i have them .... and she sent some to this girl named gigi she is my friend but ... anyway .... me and her broke up she goes out with cooper ...im in a heartache she goes out with gigi and she wrote somthing that made me cry on the inside to cooper on her livejournal... and im prety much crying right now from the memories of this affair as im telling you this detail by detail....
She , has a friend .. who i stupididly introduced her too that , really worries me to think she and her hang out so well like me and dc but the truth is i dont hate merol as a person , i hate her because i feel treatend that she is gonna take her away like gigi did... im amazed im pouring all this agony into a story that goes out to millions of you right now ..... she broke my heart she really did, she cheated on me she did all this stupid shit and everyone she meets every single person i do not agree with in my mind i feel treatend about them , and i feel guitly beond anything i am guilty for ....
I know your probly thinking of telling me omg break up with her blah ,blah ,blah , well the truth is i am in Love with her .... "i locked the door to my own cell and i lost the key" bill armstrong sings.... well i know what it feels like man i really do it sucks major monkey balls.. i dont think nobody ever expects me to be this honest to anything but i am in love with her cooper ,kai,gigi,merol, even my own friend who is the shit,mikey and gus ,even shelby and nickole, probly leo at a piont ....
i know its selfish.... i know its wrong .... i really do , but i dont know what else to say im pouring out everything because i cant keep it in any longer
damn dude this is deep like deep depp into the real truth i love her i really do i cant like anyone elsei tried but i cant when she went for gigi i went my way too but nobody was as good as her ... i love her but i dont think she loves me as much ..... seriously if you have read her livejournal this stuff about merol and shit it breaks my heart again and again but i trust her with my life and i always wil i am giong to have to stop because the memory mademe puke and i dont feel very good i feel like i am going to die shit .... if anyone gets this im sorry ....
i realized today ...... is this for real? your probly reading this thinking hmm your retarded and who cares but honestly this isnt just for me its for you guys out there too i,m here tonight telling you love is a very very powerfull thing it hurts .... i stayed up weeks crying myself to sleep time and time again .... just for her ... a girl with multive personalies,kind of hippie wardrobe, cutest smile of life ... well it turns out i dont think she loves me .... im actually ready to break down and cry right now but i really really do ......
she wrote about this boy named cooper, ohh right well heres the story me and her broke up i dumped her because i was stupidly confused with drama that.... she actually started she sent pictue to this boy ... and i am no longer friends with them but she did and she cant lie because i have them .... and she sent some to this girl named gigi she is my friend but ... anyway .... me and her broke up she goes out with cooper ...im in a heartache she goes out with gigi and she wrote somthing that made me cry on the inside to cooper on her livejournal... and im prety much crying right now from the memories of this affair as im telling you this detail by detail....
She , has a friend .. who i stupididly introduced her too that , really worries me to think she and her hang out so well like me and dc but the truth is i dont hate merol as a person , i hate her because i feel treatend that she is gonna take her away like gigi did... im amazed im pouring all this agony into a story that goes out to millions of you right now ..... she broke my heart she really did, she cheated on me she did all this stupid shit and everyone she meets every single person i do not agree with in my mind i feel treatend about them , and i feel guitly beond anything i am guilty for ....
I know your probly thinking of telling me omg break up with her blah ,blah ,blah , well the truth is i am in Love with her .... "i locked the door to my own cell and i lost the key" bill armstrong sings.... well i know what it feels like man i really do it sucks major monkey balls.. i dont think nobody ever expects me to be this honest to anything but i am in love with her cooper ,kai,gigi,merol, even my own friend who is the shit,mikey and gus ,even shelby and nickole, probly leo at a piont ....
i know its selfish.... i know its wrong .... i really do , but i dont know what else to say im pouring out everything because i cant keep it in any longer
damn dude this is deep like deep depp into the real truth i love her i really do i cant like anyone elsei tried but i cant when she went for gigi i went my way too but nobody was as good as her ... i love her but i dont think she loves me as much ..... seriously if you have read her livejournal this stuff about merol and shit it breaks my heart again and again but i trust her with my life and i always wil i am giong to have to stop because the memory mademe puke and i dont feel very good i feel like i am going to die shit .... if anyone gets this im sorry ....