Here Comes the Tide
Today is going to be a great day! There's so much to do and I am going to do it all!
I had a second (or third, or fourth, or 17th) wave of quarter-life-crises hit me the other day. Someone at work ran off with a strap and I thought, wow, I can't even do this job right. Just feeling overall shitty about myself and life in general. I know I have it made, you know? I know how lucky I am, how privileged I am and somehow I still let feelings of dissatisfaction overwhelm me from time to time. For a long time I didn't know how to be in control of my life or of myself and in recent years I've learned to put my value in the hands of others. I've been working to over come that, but I suppose that's where the dissatisfaction comes from: Selfhate and everything that comes with it!
After that most recent wave I decided to try harder. Things haven't been perfect but they are coming along pretty well!
My boss at my current job has been super supportive of me and going to work has been better than ever. We laugh a lot and get the tasks of the day done with ease. Sunday after work I jammed with one of my co-workers in the acoustic room. He is a really great song writer and singer. I showed him some of what I've been working on and he was genuinely impressed. He actually really liked what I had written and that was awesome!
I've been over coming the lack of inspiration and writers block. I started writing some new songs and started writing a new poem!
There's still time to make the Feb. 14th event great! Celia's play is amazing and we just need to sell 30 tickets a week! We got this!
Final thing to make me super happy. I've been jamming with some really cool dudes. Yesterday was the third time in three weeks we've gotten together. The main guy can play guitar like nobody's business. His idea is to have three guitarists (potentially two bassists) and create a new sound. I'm so down! Yesterday two people showed up to audition and he told me via text. I thought oh, so I'm not in for sure, that's cool. Later I realized they really like my "unique" sound. I think I'm in for sure! I'll know by next week. We are going to cover "revolution" by the Beatles and make it heavy. I have so many ideas exploding in my head now for orginals though I can't wait to start on that! <3
One reason I've been so afraid to make music is, I was afraid that I sucked. Then I realized, it doesn't matter if i'm not the greatest guitarist in the world, if I love playing I should play. If I am capable of creating I should. Everyone should. Music does not belong to elitists, it belongs to everyone. Same goes for every other form of art <3.
Meeting with Pat from Frontera Women's Foundation today, Alyssah (YAY!), and Lorena from La Mujer Obrera. I also get to go buy some new clothes for the first time in forever! yay!
I had a second (or third, or fourth, or 17th) wave of quarter-life-crises hit me the other day. Someone at work ran off with a strap and I thought, wow, I can't even do this job right. Just feeling overall shitty about myself and life in general. I know I have it made, you know? I know how lucky I am, how privileged I am and somehow I still let feelings of dissatisfaction overwhelm me from time to time. For a long time I didn't know how to be in control of my life or of myself and in recent years I've learned to put my value in the hands of others. I've been working to over come that, but I suppose that's where the dissatisfaction comes from: Selfhate and everything that comes with it!
After that most recent wave I decided to try harder. Things haven't been perfect but they are coming along pretty well!
My boss at my current job has been super supportive of me and going to work has been better than ever. We laugh a lot and get the tasks of the day done with ease. Sunday after work I jammed with one of my co-workers in the acoustic room. He is a really great song writer and singer. I showed him some of what I've been working on and he was genuinely impressed. He actually really liked what I had written and that was awesome!
I've been over coming the lack of inspiration and writers block. I started writing some new songs and started writing a new poem!
There's still time to make the Feb. 14th event great! Celia's play is amazing and we just need to sell 30 tickets a week! We got this!
Final thing to make me super happy. I've been jamming with some really cool dudes. Yesterday was the third time in three weeks we've gotten together. The main guy can play guitar like nobody's business. His idea is to have three guitarists (potentially two bassists) and create a new sound. I'm so down! Yesterday two people showed up to audition and he told me via text. I thought oh, so I'm not in for sure, that's cool. Later I realized they really like my "unique" sound. I think I'm in for sure! I'll know by next week. We are going to cover "revolution" by the Beatles and make it heavy. I have so many ideas exploding in my head now for orginals though I can't wait to start on that! <3
One reason I've been so afraid to make music is, I was afraid that I sucked. Then I realized, it doesn't matter if i'm not the greatest guitarist in the world, if I love playing I should play. If I am capable of creating I should. Everyone should. Music does not belong to elitists, it belongs to everyone. Same goes for every other form of art <3.
Meeting with Pat from Frontera Women's Foundation today, Alyssah (YAY!), and Lorena from La Mujer Obrera. I also get to go buy some new clothes for the first time in forever! yay!