realization

[maggiepooh]

i miss u guys... seriously.. i just realized how lonely a place can be when everyone is gone.. and on vacation.. i realized that in israel no matter what i never felt like that.. even if everyone is gone.. just because i loved it.. i loved the place.. it was my home.. but here.. i dunno i still feel somewhat lost.. like longing... to be back there.. it is fucked.. i like it at times because it makes me realize what it meant to me but seriously i need to move on.. it just hurts tooo fucking much.. anyways yeah.. sivan u called last night but my sister didn't tell me until this morning so i will call u later.. leigh hope you are kicking ass at the competition... i can't believe you were in piazza duomo.. it fucking makes me want to cry.. anyways to everyone else.. miss you and love..
-Megan
p.s. has anyone seen steel magnolia.. old movie fucking amazing.. i hope that we (meaning me and all my friends) turn out that close..
p.p.s. simon gets back today.. omg.. i missed him sooo fucking much.. it forced me to realize the feelings and the longing that i am going to have to go through AGAIN.. AHH.. why do i do this to myself?.. anyways.. ciao