that's the ticket
Several years ago, I watched A Perfect Score with my father. One scene in particular struck me when a character named Anna, bright as a button with the whole world being offered to her beautiful, intellectual self, offers an explanation for why she froze mid-way through her SATs and couldn't finish them. She said that one question read "A woman boards a train in New York at midnight. Three hours later a man also boards." She went on to say that, "For some reason, I couldn't get past it. Where was this woman going? Why was she alone?"
It caught my attention, I suppose, because of the plaintive note in her voice and the reality that, I still don't know where I'm going.
My grand father asked me the other day which university is the best in the US. When I replied to the effect that I was clueless, he advised me to pick which course of study I preferred then pick the school that did the best in that course.
I didn't have the heart to tell him that that is eactly why I'm clueless regarding schools. Neither did I admit this increasing desire to not go into the sciences as everyone expects. Mentioning it to my mother has already freaked her out as it is. She's trying to be calm and understanding about it, which is awesome, but how do I explain that I'm not really into the scienes anymore. I mean, I could fake it for the next thirty years, I have that much faith in my willpower, but who would I be kidding? I'd hate my life.
This is the challenge for my generations, isn't it? You have to know where you're going while you're still finding your way to the beginning. Often, it's not enough to be bright or hardworking. Now, you have to do calculus at 14, join at least three different clubs, become a leader in all of them, do charity work in between, save the world and be beautiful to boot to be marginally acceptable. Or at least, that's what if feels like most of the time.
Okay, okay, I'm exagerating, but I'm just too confused myself without external pressure. Give me some more time, okay?
Anyway, this video really made me smile. It's nice to have some sort of support, even if they don't quite know they're giving it.
It caught my attention, I suppose, because of the plaintive note in her voice and the reality that, I still don't know where I'm going.
My grand father asked me the other day which university is the best in the US. When I replied to the effect that I was clueless, he advised me to pick which course of study I preferred then pick the school that did the best in that course.
I didn't have the heart to tell him that that is eactly why I'm clueless regarding schools. Neither did I admit this increasing desire to not go into the sciences as everyone expects. Mentioning it to my mother has already freaked her out as it is. She's trying to be calm and understanding about it, which is awesome, but how do I explain that I'm not really into the scienes anymore. I mean, I could fake it for the next thirty years, I have that much faith in my willpower, but who would I be kidding? I'd hate my life.
This is the challenge for my generations, isn't it? You have to know where you're going while you're still finding your way to the beginning. Often, it's not enough to be bright or hardworking. Now, you have to do calculus at 14, join at least three different clubs, become a leader in all of them, do charity work in between, save the world and be beautiful to boot to be marginally acceptable. Or at least, that's what if feels like most of the time.
Okay, okay, I'm exagerating, but I'm just too confused myself without external pressure. Give me some more time, okay?
Anyway, this video really made me smile. It's nice to have some sort of support, even if they don't quite know they're giving it.