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It's a rare occurrence that I'm in a situation where I don't think, "this is nice, but it would be so much nicer if he were here." Is that lame? It's probably lame.
It's weird that my social circle in Morgantown is different from my friends' social circle. I feel like I should belong there, but I don't. Maybe I don't try. Maybe I'm not as social as I used to be. Maybe I was never that social. Maybe I'm only social in certain situations. In small groups, maybe. I'm so afraid that my friends will think I'm judging them for drinking - I have been teh drunkz b4! Y would I judge? - when sometimes I feel they're judging me for not. It's all retarded, just thinking about what other people are thinking. And thinking about what they think you're thinking. Whatever. And tonight I didn't have anyone who I could always turn to when other people didn't want to talk to me anymore. Or someone to go to when I didn't want to talk to someone anymore. How long is it? 11 1/2 months?
Performance classes. That's a place where I don't think about how it'd be better if he were with me.
I'm really sleepy. Goodnight.
It's weird that my social circle in Morgantown is different from my friends' social circle. I feel like I should belong there, but I don't. Maybe I don't try. Maybe I'm not as social as I used to be. Maybe I was never that social. Maybe I'm only social in certain situations. In small groups, maybe. I'm so afraid that my friends will think I'm judging them for drinking - I have been teh drunkz b4! Y would I judge? - when sometimes I feel they're judging me for not. It's all retarded, just thinking about what other people are thinking. And thinking about what they think you're thinking. Whatever. And tonight I didn't have anyone who I could always turn to when other people didn't want to talk to me anymore. Or someone to go to when I didn't want to talk to someone anymore. How long is it? 11 1/2 months?
Performance classes. That's a place where I don't think about how it'd be better if he were with me.
I'm really sleepy. Goodnight.