Update!
I'm still in Portland, Maine. I love it here. I've met a lot of really amazing people lately.
I have a job now. I work for FairPoint Communications (I know. I know.) I'm a temp right now, but apparently if you can tolerate it, you can be a temp for a long time. I'll be looking for more steady work, but this job has the flexibility that I can look for another job while working there. Extended lunches are no problem at all.
I'm going to Wildfire again this September. I'm really excited about this.
Other than that, I've been doing really well other than the getting lonely part. It seems like every time I like someone, it's not the right situation, or they're not looking for anything, not interested or interested in someone else. Or they're just wonderful and amazing people, but I just don't feel connected to them. It's strange that all my friends think I'm OK in this respect. I do get into mischief sometimes, but it's all just on the surface... nothing really deeper than that.
I can make it well enough on my own, but that lack of deeper connection is hard.
Inner confidence is something I know I'm lacking. On the surface I put out this really confident, I'm amazing vibe, but I still have my insecurities, and I can be really hard on myself sometimes. I know I have to work on that before I can feel a healthy connection with someone.
I have a job now. I work for FairPoint Communications (I know. I know.) I'm a temp right now, but apparently if you can tolerate it, you can be a temp for a long time. I'll be looking for more steady work, but this job has the flexibility that I can look for another job while working there. Extended lunches are no problem at all.
I'm going to Wildfire again this September. I'm really excited about this.
Other than that, I've been doing really well other than the getting lonely part. It seems like every time I like someone, it's not the right situation, or they're not looking for anything, not interested or interested in someone else. Or they're just wonderful and amazing people, but I just don't feel connected to them. It's strange that all my friends think I'm OK in this respect. I do get into mischief sometimes, but it's all just on the surface... nothing really deeper than that.
I can make it well enough on my own, but that lack of deeper connection is hard.
Inner confidence is something I know I'm lacking. On the surface I put out this really confident, I'm amazing vibe, but I still have my insecurities, and I can be really hard on myself sometimes. I know I have to work on that before I can feel a healthy connection with someone.