Jun 20, 2010 15:09
Today is a hard day for me, so I'm trying to focus on the positive.
I realized lately I have been smiling a lot more. It feels amazing to start to feel a happiness that glows from within and radiates outward. People have noticed, and pointed it out to me on a few occasions.
Before I've stayed in situations that have made me unhappy. My actions and reactions in those situations are mine to own, and I do. I look back on who I was three months ago and know I can never go back to that place ever again. I'm not perfect. No one is. I don't always have the amount of grace needed in a situation, but for what I lack I try to make up in kindness.
I will never let myself feel manipulated or put down, or let myself be surrounded by those who disrespect me and bad mouth me to those I hold dear. I will never be made to feel uncomfortable in my own home for any extended period of time. I will take the harder route if that's what I need to find happiness. I will stop having a split conscience about any decisions in my life for an extended period of time.
These are promises I made to myself a little while ago. I'm keeping my head up, letting go of regret, hatred and spite, because these emotions do me no good. To feel these emotions for any period of time is, like a friend put it, drinking half your poison.
I am surrounding myself with good hearted, positive and inspiring people, and it just makes the world that much more wonderful.
I'm excited to see what is to come of my life, and know I am destine to do nothing short of amazing things. I will move forward with the goal, every day, to be an inspiration to those around me.