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Dear Journal,
Mmmmm roast for tea @@ *eyes glitter glitter, tummy grumbles >.>* I pumped it full of garlic and mint @@ and i have rosemary gravy =P!
Mwahaha my diet rules! XD i cheated though, had a burger after the movies last night ooo and a bite of mums banana cake today @@ ooo and tea..with sugar XD. Sooooooo what! I'm only doin it for me so bah if i let me down. I'm trying to get back into martial arts, uncanny someone from my old club should ring me the other night, now i know where they are hidding XD.
I trained hard tonight, bet i'm gona have sore ass muscles tomorrow.
Hmmmmm here's poetry, last nights journal entry in my journal here.::
"Dear Sally,"
Waittttttttt!
The roast is ready @@!!!! I must..EEEeat it! >.> Jahjah!*nodnodnod*
*ish in heaven*
*full* x.x'
*dies* x.x''''
Right
"Dear Sally,
Your in denial, open your eyes and loose your sorrow. He is as all are, you have been used and i know you let him in but dreams are just dreams.
Be happy for one good night among so many bad, take your lessons, carry your pride for denying him the one thing he wanted most from you that you felt you should not trust to loose. Being strong enough to risk looseing that dream and your happiness for truth, that is pride, strength and wisdom. Do not morn what was never yours.
Rise up as the pheonix, ash falling as the snow, the feeling just as icey cold.
Perhaps things are not as they seem but do not hold back your flames, do not fold your wings, fly and hope he will fly after you but never look back.
txt to daniel.:
"well i'm going home, I put your guitar in kittys so it dosn't get damaged. Sorry you chose not to come. I wouldn't mind talking to you at some stage, i'm a bit confused. Have a good night anyhow."
Sally."
Don't take it that i'm sad, i feel very...mature right now o.O'. Yeah i know, i feel like i'm more mature than the 25 year old i kissed on wednsday. No i'm not a slut! Meh gwad that was the first guy i've ever kissed, *Shrug* no regrets, perhaps confusion but not a lot, i can see with eyes wide open. I see that he's confussed and feels rejected cos i wouldn't sleep with him. But thats my risk i had to take to see what his true intentions were. If he truely did like me with as much lust as he claims then he would not need to sleep with me and yet right now things are unsure.
He was invited out here on saturday night before anything happened between us, he said he'd come even on saturday night he claimed he'd be out later. But nooo he didn't show and ya know i don't really mind, i'm not mad, i'm not wasteing my emotion worrying about it.
He was invited to the movies last night, he didn't really reply when kitty asked if he wanted to come, apparently he said "Are you guys going?" and she said "yeah" and he said "hmm i dunno i'll see".
Apparently he was in a strange mood.
Meh, he's been acting kinda wierd anyhow, kinda like he's moaping e.e. I guess me not moaping and hanging with kitty and matt with him right there isn't really nice but...he knows my rules and he knows i'm close to my matty bro and kitty sis, i always go and see them, hell i stayed there a few nights when things here were going badly. I can't help that he lives next door, thats how he met me in the first place.
He told me that night that he had no problems and he wouldn't bullshit me, i'd like to think that but perhaps he is just a smooth talking guy, i've met those...he's a very very hard guy to read though, i usually can read people clearly. Hmmm...one's mind wanders.
Anyyyyyhow i'm cold, and i really should have a shower and go to bed >.>, i had three showers yesterday XD one to wake me up, one before i went out and one before bed cos i was cold. Good thing i don't pay the power.
Hmmmm my cat was at the vets, he had an abcess on his shoulder, has to go back in 4 days to get the drain removed and then again in 10 days to get his stitch's out. ^^, he was ubber happy to see meh ^__^.
Anyhow, luff chu all
xoxoxoxoxoxoooooooo
Mmmmm roast for tea @@ *eyes glitter glitter, tummy grumbles >.>* I pumped it full of garlic and mint @@ and i have rosemary gravy =P!
Mwahaha my diet rules! XD i cheated though, had a burger after the movies last night ooo and a bite of mums banana cake today @@ ooo and tea..with sugar XD. Sooooooo what! I'm only doin it for me so bah if i let me down. I'm trying to get back into martial arts, uncanny someone from my old club should ring me the other night, now i know where they are hidding XD.
I trained hard tonight, bet i'm gona have sore ass muscles tomorrow.
Hmmmmm here's poetry, last nights journal entry in my journal here.::
"Dear Sally,"
Waittttttttt!
The roast is ready @@!!!! I must..EEEeat it! >.> Jahjah!*nodnodnod*
*ish in heaven*
*full* x.x'
*dies* x.x''''
Right
"Dear Sally,
Your in denial, open your eyes and loose your sorrow. He is as all are, you have been used and i know you let him in but dreams are just dreams.
Be happy for one good night among so many bad, take your lessons, carry your pride for denying him the one thing he wanted most from you that you felt you should not trust to loose. Being strong enough to risk looseing that dream and your happiness for truth, that is pride, strength and wisdom. Do not morn what was never yours.
Rise up as the pheonix, ash falling as the snow, the feeling just as icey cold.
Perhaps things are not as they seem but do not hold back your flames, do not fold your wings, fly and hope he will fly after you but never look back.
txt to daniel.:
"well i'm going home, I put your guitar in kittys so it dosn't get damaged. Sorry you chose not to come. I wouldn't mind talking to you at some stage, i'm a bit confused. Have a good night anyhow."
Sally."
Don't take it that i'm sad, i feel very...mature right now o.O'. Yeah i know, i feel like i'm more mature than the 25 year old i kissed on wednsday. No i'm not a slut! Meh gwad that was the first guy i've ever kissed, *Shrug* no regrets, perhaps confusion but not a lot, i can see with eyes wide open. I see that he's confussed and feels rejected cos i wouldn't sleep with him. But thats my risk i had to take to see what his true intentions were. If he truely did like me with as much lust as he claims then he would not need to sleep with me and yet right now things are unsure.
He was invited out here on saturday night before anything happened between us, he said he'd come even on saturday night he claimed he'd be out later. But nooo he didn't show and ya know i don't really mind, i'm not mad, i'm not wasteing my emotion worrying about it.
He was invited to the movies last night, he didn't really reply when kitty asked if he wanted to come, apparently he said "Are you guys going?" and she said "yeah" and he said "hmm i dunno i'll see".
Apparently he was in a strange mood.
Meh, he's been acting kinda wierd anyhow, kinda like he's moaping e.e. I guess me not moaping and hanging with kitty and matt with him right there isn't really nice but...he knows my rules and he knows i'm close to my matty bro and kitty sis, i always go and see them, hell i stayed there a few nights when things here were going badly. I can't help that he lives next door, thats how he met me in the first place.
He told me that night that he had no problems and he wouldn't bullshit me, i'd like to think that but perhaps he is just a smooth talking guy, i've met those...he's a very very hard guy to read though, i usually can read people clearly. Hmmm...one's mind wanders.
Anyyyyyhow i'm cold, and i really should have a shower and go to bed >.>, i had three showers yesterday XD one to wake me up, one before i went out and one before bed cos i was cold. Good thing i don't pay the power.
Hmmmm my cat was at the vets, he had an abcess on his shoulder, has to go back in 4 days to get the drain removed and then again in 10 days to get his stitch's out. ^^, he was ubber happy to see meh ^__^.
Anyhow, luff chu all
xoxoxoxoxoxoooooooo