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Dear Journal,
Music music music...thank god for music...
I saw kitty and matt tonight so that was awsome, matt cooked me tea ^^. Kitty stabbed him o.o'' he had to be rushed to hospital and have stitch's. e.e'' yeah i have strange friends, she has yet to learn ippon from me and i think that i should start teaching her sooner rather than later to avoid other such things happening.
I decided to start with somthing other than "john" although as you can already guess he's the topic of this entry yet again...
I should be asleep but today was rather eventful i guess you'd say. I went shopping with mum which was fun, we also went and looked at a truck she was thinking of buying.
Hmm i got a text this afternoon asking me to go and get John from the flat because he was drunk and they wanted him gone.
So i went, and yes he was drunk.
He fell over so i tried to drag him only his pants began to pull off so i stopped. His belt broke and he lost it going into a rage fit over it. He screamed at me, somthing along the lines of "Fuck you! Why did you break my belt?!?!! Why are you here? Fuck off out of my life, Get fucked!!!!!" He then turned to Megan and told her to get fucked as well. I simply shut the door and appoligised to everyone, gathered up his things and fixed the belt. I went outside and tipped the 4 wheeler back up the right way after he'd tipped it and drove home, i passed him on the way.
I got home, used mums cell phone to text kitty and matt and ask if i could come and see them and as he arrived i left.
I got home at about 11pm, he was here in bed with 2 girls no older than 16, i was disgusted. He said "Who the fucks that" and i replied "Who the fuck do you think it is".
I got out of bed because megan texted me saying that the two little sluts that were in the bed with my brother were texting her threatening to bash her and i believe my exact words were "i'll tell you in all serriousness if they even try it i'll bash them so badly they'll have to pee through a tube there on!"
I told her there was 2 girls here with john and she asked if she could come around, i said she was welcome any time. I knew what was comming and i guess i should have stopped it but i decided i was doing nothing good by stopping things happening to john. So megan came and i let her in and she beat john with her purse calling him a bastard and saying how she hates him. The two sluts just lay there lol and she hit one of them with her bag. I found it rather funny until he drew back to hit her and i threatened him "Don't you touch her" and he told me to get fucked "I'm warning you john" and he knew by the tone that i was serrouss. He got up and tried to leave only mum came out. I told the two sluts it was time to go and let them out the gate.
Mum tried to talk to him but he wouldn't listen and just kept telling her she couldn't tell him what to do all of his life.
He said "i'm gona call the police, i'm gona have her up for abuse" then mum slapped him and he said "And you! i'll have you up too!"
I havn't seen mum that mad in a long time.
He went out and tried to start his car but mum made him turn it off, she told him to get inside but he walked off down the road and she told him to fuck off then.
Megan was crying and saying she just wanted to go home so i pulled her into a hug, i had to let her go to give mum the gate keys and i went out to make sure he didn't hit her although i doubt as much as horrible as he can be he would risk hitting mum.
I thought he was going to hit me when i went to get him from the flat, him and garath almost got into a fight and i pulled them apart and confronted him. It seems to work when one is not afraid of him and i am rather confident although he is perhaps stronger and fitter in some case's i could win a fight because i have heart and spirit and a damn hard hit despite what some may think.
My job may as well be an 18 hour work out for i never stop and i lift 20 to 40kg's constantly throughout the day.
I gave megan another hug and she was saying she was so sorry for bringing this to our house and that she'd had gin which makes her angry. I told her that this was something that needed to happen and i was proud of her for finally stepping up because i know she loves him.
I told her she could stay here tonight but i didn't thinks he would take up the offer but she's sleeping in johns bed...i guess she loves him too much?...thats half the problem of most i guess.
I'm worried about Vonnie, she's stressing over things and needed to talk to me on saturday when i wasn't at work. She wanted me to go with her up the coast but i was way too tired. I'm tired now but sleep evades me it seems, maybe i want to draw? It seems i draw better when tired because i am so relaxed...
I feel guilty and worried about the fact that john might hurt himself but the strength inside of me is telling me to stop worrying so now i have mixed feelings between strength and compassion. Why do my emotions fight all of the time? its frustrateing v.v'.
Music music music...thank god for music...
I saw kitty and matt tonight so that was awsome, matt cooked me tea ^^. Kitty stabbed him o.o'' he had to be rushed to hospital and have stitch's. e.e'' yeah i have strange friends, she has yet to learn ippon from me and i think that i should start teaching her sooner rather than later to avoid other such things happening.
I decided to start with somthing other than "john" although as you can already guess he's the topic of this entry yet again...
I should be asleep but today was rather eventful i guess you'd say. I went shopping with mum which was fun, we also went and looked at a truck she was thinking of buying.
Hmm i got a text this afternoon asking me to go and get John from the flat because he was drunk and they wanted him gone.
So i went, and yes he was drunk.
He fell over so i tried to drag him only his pants began to pull off so i stopped. His belt broke and he lost it going into a rage fit over it. He screamed at me, somthing along the lines of "Fuck you! Why did you break my belt?!?!! Why are you here? Fuck off out of my life, Get fucked!!!!!" He then turned to Megan and told her to get fucked as well. I simply shut the door and appoligised to everyone, gathered up his things and fixed the belt. I went outside and tipped the 4 wheeler back up the right way after he'd tipped it and drove home, i passed him on the way.
I got home, used mums cell phone to text kitty and matt and ask if i could come and see them and as he arrived i left.
I got home at about 11pm, he was here in bed with 2 girls no older than 16, i was disgusted. He said "Who the fucks that" and i replied "Who the fuck do you think it is".
I got out of bed because megan texted me saying that the two little sluts that were in the bed with my brother were texting her threatening to bash her and i believe my exact words were "i'll tell you in all serriousness if they even try it i'll bash them so badly they'll have to pee through a tube there on!"
I told her there was 2 girls here with john and she asked if she could come around, i said she was welcome any time. I knew what was comming and i guess i should have stopped it but i decided i was doing nothing good by stopping things happening to john. So megan came and i let her in and she beat john with her purse calling him a bastard and saying how she hates him. The two sluts just lay there lol and she hit one of them with her bag. I found it rather funny until he drew back to hit her and i threatened him "Don't you touch her" and he told me to get fucked "I'm warning you john" and he knew by the tone that i was serrouss. He got up and tried to leave only mum came out. I told the two sluts it was time to go and let them out the gate.
Mum tried to talk to him but he wouldn't listen and just kept telling her she couldn't tell him what to do all of his life.
He said "i'm gona call the police, i'm gona have her up for abuse" then mum slapped him and he said "And you! i'll have you up too!"
I havn't seen mum that mad in a long time.
He went out and tried to start his car but mum made him turn it off, she told him to get inside but he walked off down the road and she told him to fuck off then.
Megan was crying and saying she just wanted to go home so i pulled her into a hug, i had to let her go to give mum the gate keys and i went out to make sure he didn't hit her although i doubt as much as horrible as he can be he would risk hitting mum.
I thought he was going to hit me when i went to get him from the flat, him and garath almost got into a fight and i pulled them apart and confronted him. It seems to work when one is not afraid of him and i am rather confident although he is perhaps stronger and fitter in some case's i could win a fight because i have heart and spirit and a damn hard hit despite what some may think.
My job may as well be an 18 hour work out for i never stop and i lift 20 to 40kg's constantly throughout the day.
I gave megan another hug and she was saying she was so sorry for bringing this to our house and that she'd had gin which makes her angry. I told her that this was something that needed to happen and i was proud of her for finally stepping up because i know she loves him.
I told her she could stay here tonight but i didn't thinks he would take up the offer but she's sleeping in johns bed...i guess she loves him too much?...thats half the problem of most i guess.
I'm worried about Vonnie, she's stressing over things and needed to talk to me on saturday when i wasn't at work. She wanted me to go with her up the coast but i was way too tired. I'm tired now but sleep evades me it seems, maybe i want to draw? It seems i draw better when tired because i am so relaxed...
I feel guilty and worried about the fact that john might hurt himself but the strength inside of me is telling me to stop worrying so now i have mixed feelings between strength and compassion. Why do my emotions fight all of the time? its frustrateing v.v'.