hai gais
Uhh .. I know it's been a while .. guess I'm more used to updating my lame-ass facebook than I am this ol' thing.
But ...
I am still working there. And I hate it as much as ever.
BUT ... for shits and giggles I applied at walmart of all places. It was a sucky job, but ... I'd rather be there than where I am at now. And hopefully I could get a better schedule where I'm not like ... closing one night then being expected to come back at FUCKING ASS EARLY O CLOCK IN THE MORNING. D: I put my availability from 11 to 11 ... and hopefully they will be looking for extra people for the holidays ...
Or .. maybe I'll just get used to having to open once a week where I am at now .. and seeing that wench's face ... and pretending I don't want to gouge her eyes out. :D
I just wish I didn't have this issue of freaking panicking when I know I have to get up at specific times in the mornings ... as of now I -NEVER- get to sleep the night before when I do ... and taking xanax just barely helps to keep my ass calm. At least I have a prescription of that again ... -.- Not that I am proud to be using a medication as a crutch. I don't take it everyday, so ...
Uhhh .. I am thinking of dropping school ... because ... online classes suck ass. But ... I just hope I don't have to owe any money ... >_>; ... Ugh ... I hate how I was so motivated and excited about being a student again only for all of that to vanish once I see how ridiculous it is ... I mean ... a chunk of my grade for assignments depends on my OPINION on OTHER PEOPLE'S WORK. WTF? I don't want to have an opinion about someone's spreadsheet that they put together on microsoft excel ... LOL ... I mean unless you are a real hardcore computer nerd how could you POSSIBLY get excited about THAT? And want to type out a thorough explanation on why you personally feel that it's FANTASTIC!?
I think I'm pretty good with graphics with just my own self-taught skills. Maybe I'll just put together a portfolio online and hope maybe I can get somewhere without a fancy piece of paper saying YEAH, SHE PAID MONEY FOR BOOKS AND LESSONS THAT SOMEHOW MEANS SHE'S MORE QUALIFIED THAN MOST FOR THIS JOB, LULZ. But ... maybe I'm in denial.
Honestly I still don't know what I REALLY want to do for a career. It's very frustrating, no? I have plenty of projects I want to accomplish SOMETIME before I die ... but ... uhh ... it's hard to get my motivation back ... it's been dried up for ... years. :|
Anyway ... my tired eyes say it's bedtime. -.-
But ...
I am still working there. And I hate it as much as ever.
BUT ... for shits and giggles I applied at walmart of all places. It was a sucky job, but ... I'd rather be there than where I am at now. And hopefully I could get a better schedule where I'm not like ... closing one night then being expected to come back at FUCKING ASS EARLY O CLOCK IN THE MORNING. D: I put my availability from 11 to 11 ... and hopefully they will be looking for extra people for the holidays ...
Or .. maybe I'll just get used to having to open once a week where I am at now .. and seeing that wench's face ... and pretending I don't want to gouge her eyes out. :D
I just wish I didn't have this issue of freaking panicking when I know I have to get up at specific times in the mornings ... as of now I -NEVER- get to sleep the night before when I do ... and taking xanax just barely helps to keep my ass calm. At least I have a prescription of that again ... -.- Not that I am proud to be using a medication as a crutch. I don't take it everyday, so ...
Uhhh .. I am thinking of dropping school ... because ... online classes suck ass. But ... I just hope I don't have to owe any money ... >_>; ... Ugh ... I hate how I was so motivated and excited about being a student again only for all of that to vanish once I see how ridiculous it is ... I mean ... a chunk of my grade for assignments depends on my OPINION on OTHER PEOPLE'S WORK. WTF? I don't want to have an opinion about someone's spreadsheet that they put together on microsoft excel ... LOL ... I mean unless you are a real hardcore computer nerd how could you POSSIBLY get excited about THAT? And want to type out a thorough explanation on why you personally feel that it's FANTASTIC!?
I think I'm pretty good with graphics with just my own self-taught skills. Maybe I'll just put together a portfolio online and hope maybe I can get somewhere without a fancy piece of paper saying YEAH, SHE PAID MONEY FOR BOOKS AND LESSONS THAT SOMEHOW MEANS SHE'S MORE QUALIFIED THAN MOST FOR THIS JOB, LULZ. But ... maybe I'm in denial.
Honestly I still don't know what I REALLY want to do for a career. It's very frustrating, no? I have plenty of projects I want to accomplish SOMETIME before I die ... but ... uhh ... it's hard to get my motivation back ... it's been dried up for ... years. :|
Anyway ... my tired eyes say it's bedtime. -.-