Ho Ho HO
Well the holidays are almost here, god help us all *L* I dont know what my family is going to do because we dont have any money, we're hoping my mom will get a christmas bonus but we're not sure yet. We got our first tip in the mail today from one of our paper costumers. We put the flyers in the paper last week. Hopefully we'll get a lot more money *L*. Its been decided that since christmas is on a saturday this year we're all going to Dallas. It should be cool I guess, we havent been to dallas actually on christmas day in quite a few years. I'm looking forward to seeing the babies, they are so damned cute. The one thing I'm not looking forward to is the fact that now both of my cousins are married with families and I still dont have anyone. It hits you like a punch in the stomach to have to sit there watching them wondering why I dont have the same thing. I'm getting so sick and tired of it. After christmas I dont think I will be going back to Dallas for a while, I'm just getting tired of all of it. I start my new job next week. I'm gonna be working at PPD with my sister. I'm really nervous cause I dont really know anything about what I'll be doing. I'm gonna have to draw blood, I dont think I'll have a prob with that though cause I've never been squeamish (SP?) The first two weeks are trainging so hopefully I'll learn everything I need to know. I have to get 3 shots for Hepatis since I'll be working with needles. Luckily they arent all together, they will be spaced out. I'm just really scared that I will make a fool out of my sister. I'm in a constant state of fear that I cant do anything anymore I guess its cause I've been sitting on my ass for like 4 years. I dunno. Things in my life are starting to look up though, I have my license, my car, now a job and I'll have money for clothes and this summer I'll be getting my own apartment. I cant wait to live on my own, to be able to go anywhere at anytime and not have to answer to anyone. Its gonna be so awesome. I've also decided that I would like to get into college soon. I wanna major in photography. I wanna someday own my own portrait studio, one of those that have all kinds of backgrounds, and clothing, kinda like glamor shots, but even better. If I did that it would also give me time to write. I think it will be good for me. NE Ways cant think of anything else to write in here, no one but me reads in anyways, later dayz.