Affirmation
Well my uncle pulled through his surgery ok. The doc didnt find any cancer, or anything he wasnt expecting to find which is great. The doc took out about 8 to 10 inches of his inflamed colon. There's still a little bit of inflammation but hopefully that will go down with medicine. The doc also decided that since he was already in there and since my uncle didnt need it for anything he took out his appendix. I'm so glad that my uncle is going to be ok, I was worried that we were gonna lose him.
As I've said in my subject line I've had an affirmation of sorts. Unless its to for my b-day at the end of this month I wont be coming back to Dallas to visit my moms family. Its too embarrassing. I will only come back if A.) I have my license. B.) I'm going to school. Or C.) I have a job. I cant help feeling like such a loser compared to my sister and my cousins. They all have lives, I have literally nothing. I cant stand it anymore. My parents have to start helping me. I know that they have been going through some hard times in the past year but I honestly feel I have been more than understanding. I'm tired of everything. I'm fed up, I've had it. I cant stand it anymore. I can honestly and truly say that I hate my life, or lack there of. I swear that if something doesnt happen in the next couple of months I will be gone. I would rather live on the streets than live the way I am right now. I know that prolly sounds stupid but I'm desperate. I'm going to turn 21 in a couple of weeks and I have absolutely NOTHING to show for it!!!!
I dont know what the hell to do, I am completely lost.