This is what living like this does.
I couldn't really sleep last night/this morning. Anticipation anxiety, I think Mickey called it.
We also talked about the discovery. I didn't like remembering it and it scared me a little how upset it made me to think about it. I don't even usually get that upset just thinking about Janko.
She let me vent about my desire for a 'normal' life, again, and she made me feel a little better. If there is anything she does for me, it's reassure me that I am not being a selfish person for wanting things to be different.
I wish I could be surrounded by people like her more often.
The best thing is when you wake up and you're making breakfast and she comes downstairs in her pajamas. And then she asks for breakfast and you don't want to say no, so you just give her yours.
A boy in one of my classes said that yesterday. I thought it was really cute.
I need to take a shower, I think. Or maybe a bath.
I wish I had one of those jaccuzzi [spelling?] tub things, so I could just sit in it for hours. With candles lit. And a book. Yeah. That would be nice.
I was reading a magazine ealier, when I couldn't sleep, and it made me want to grow up. And be cute.
I will be 18 in four days. I'm a child.
We also talked about the discovery. I didn't like remembering it and it scared me a little how upset it made me to think about it. I don't even usually get that upset just thinking about Janko.
She let me vent about my desire for a 'normal' life, again, and she made me feel a little better. If there is anything she does for me, it's reassure me that I am not being a selfish person for wanting things to be different.
I wish I could be surrounded by people like her more often.
The best thing is when you wake up and you're making breakfast and she comes downstairs in her pajamas. And then she asks for breakfast and you don't want to say no, so you just give her yours.
A boy in one of my classes said that yesterday. I thought it was really cute.
I need to take a shower, I think. Or maybe a bath.
I wish I had one of those jaccuzzi [spelling?] tub things, so I could just sit in it for hours. With candles lit. And a book. Yeah. That would be nice.
I was reading a magazine ealier, when I couldn't sleep, and it made me want to grow up. And be cute.
I will be 18 in four days. I'm a child.