This may be too much for some to read BUT it's how I cope
My friend had an interview for a nanny position with a celebrity (who shall remain unnamed but she is HOT)- and my friend told her about what happened with Mike and how she (my friend) has been staying with me yadda yadda yadda...........and the celebrity gave her advice for me.
Geez Mike if you wanted to meet her.....I'd just took you up there!
Today was kind of bad- I'm starting to have dreams that he's dead. For awhile he was alive in my dreams- so all I wanted to do is sleep. Now I'm dreaming that he's dead and I'm even crying in my dreams.
And then I have these really f***ed up thoughts about when the cops pulled the stretcher out with the body bag on it. Whose genious idea was it to put bodies in a huge black plastic bag? Why not wrap them in blankets- I have plenty of blankets here he'd be more comfortable in.........
OK- so I'm going a little nuts. I would NEVER NEVER NEVER wish this on anyone- these thoughts and feelings. This hopeless feeling of doom- and looking and searching for a way to get him back here with me.
Geez Mike if you wanted to meet her.....I'd just took you up there!
Today was kind of bad- I'm starting to have dreams that he's dead. For awhile he was alive in my dreams- so all I wanted to do is sleep. Now I'm dreaming that he's dead and I'm even crying in my dreams.
And then I have these really f***ed up thoughts about when the cops pulled the stretcher out with the body bag on it. Whose genious idea was it to put bodies in a huge black plastic bag? Why not wrap them in blankets- I have plenty of blankets here he'd be more comfortable in.........
OK- so I'm going a little nuts. I would NEVER NEVER NEVER wish this on anyone- these thoughts and feelings. This hopeless feeling of doom- and looking and searching for a way to get him back here with me.