brain imploding
Ok, so I am coming to terms with the fact that I have been brain-washed by NDA, and thus it has screwed up all relationships I have.
It is hard but i am working on it.
But the thing that is really eating away at my brain (not counting any alien parasites... hahaha) is the fact that every time I talk to my sister or parents I am reminded how everything I enjoy is stupid, and I am a brat for wanting to do what I like to do.
All of this (NDA & family) is making me question myself and what I want so much so that I am missing out on opportunities. Ones that I am not sure are going to come around again any time soon.
I feel like I am going to have to revaluate my priorities soon, as well as, how close i am to my family. I used to tell them everything and they respected my decisions. I could handle any disappointment or the like. But now I just want it to stop.
Its a friday night and I am going to bed at 10pm. This is wrong, but i am dead tired. And, well... I will complain about other stuff later.
But please stop telling me my choices, actions, friends, ideas, pleasures, interests, and life is stupid and bratty. I swear it isn't.
It is hard but i am working on it.
But the thing that is really eating away at my brain (not counting any alien parasites... hahaha) is the fact that every time I talk to my sister or parents I am reminded how everything I enjoy is stupid, and I am a brat for wanting to do what I like to do.
All of this (NDA & family) is making me question myself and what I want so much so that I am missing out on opportunities. Ones that I am not sure are going to come around again any time soon.
I feel like I am going to have to revaluate my priorities soon, as well as, how close i am to my family. I used to tell them everything and they respected my decisions. I could handle any disappointment or the like. But now I just want it to stop.
Its a friday night and I am going to bed at 10pm. This is wrong, but i am dead tired. And, well... I will complain about other stuff later.
But please stop telling me my choices, actions, friends, ideas, pleasures, interests, and life is stupid and bratty. I swear it isn't.