Getting Back in the Habit
I write here very rarely. That's because I write very rarely. I'm out of the habit. I'd like to change that. I find I'm in a better place in the world during the times I'm journaling. I don't know which is the cause and which is the effect. I think it's a co-creation thing. I write when my mind is more together, which helps me get my mind more together.
So the past couple weeks have been ridiculously intense. It's been a huge transitional phase with Sabrina starting a new position with UMDNJ in a new location, the need to acquire a new car for her, my car needing a bunch of repairs, and some serious reflection on relationships in my life. I've been trying to spend a full day in my office at least once in the past two weeks, and have been unable to pull this off. Maybe tomorrow. The paperwork is completely out of hand at this point. Since I've kept up with the financial parts of the businesses, at least the paperwork chaos isn't effecting my clients or the vendors who supply me, just my sanity. I will get to that in due time. Likely when I make time.
Today is rest and cleaning. I worked until 2:30 am yesterday, got home around three, and wasn't able to sleep until 4. Woke up with a call from my cousin at 8:00 that the car repairs I did were perfect, he would fix my A/C today, and we would be in good shape. I'm very happy to have gotten that call, I just wish it had been about three hours later. I will compensate with a nap this afternoon, but it won't be a replacement for the lost sleep. That will probably take me two days to recover from. If I allow myself to nap more than an hour, I won't be able to sleep tonight till 2:00 at best, and then I'm just screwed. This extra energy thing because I'm not poisoning myself daily can be exhausting if I don't manage it right. Maybe I should return to marathon training. At least then, I was exhausted all the time, and never had a problem with sleep. I will also stop drinking caffeine eventually to combat the sleep issues I've experienced, but one step at a time. As a good friend of mine said recently, "You can't throw away all your crutches at once or you'll fall down and break your face."
So the past couple weeks have been ridiculously intense. It's been a huge transitional phase with Sabrina starting a new position with UMDNJ in a new location, the need to acquire a new car for her, my car needing a bunch of repairs, and some serious reflection on relationships in my life. I've been trying to spend a full day in my office at least once in the past two weeks, and have been unable to pull this off. Maybe tomorrow. The paperwork is completely out of hand at this point. Since I've kept up with the financial parts of the businesses, at least the paperwork chaos isn't effecting my clients or the vendors who supply me, just my sanity. I will get to that in due time. Likely when I make time.
Today is rest and cleaning. I worked until 2:30 am yesterday, got home around three, and wasn't able to sleep until 4. Woke up with a call from my cousin at 8:00 that the car repairs I did were perfect, he would fix my A/C today, and we would be in good shape. I'm very happy to have gotten that call, I just wish it had been about three hours later. I will compensate with a nap this afternoon, but it won't be a replacement for the lost sleep. That will probably take me two days to recover from. If I allow myself to nap more than an hour, I won't be able to sleep tonight till 2:00 at best, and then I'm just screwed. This extra energy thing because I'm not poisoning myself daily can be exhausting if I don't manage it right. Maybe I should return to marathon training. At least then, I was exhausted all the time, and never had a problem with sleep. I will also stop drinking caffeine eventually to combat the sleep issues I've experienced, but one step at a time. As a good friend of mine said recently, "You can't throw away all your crutches at once or you'll fall down and break your face."