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Remember when I was like "I'm going to take off from working for two weeks and then get a job and work again"? Lol...that was funny. So I still have no job and I'm LOVING it. I get to scrapbook with Jessy at least once a week and I absolutely love staying up late with her watching movies, laughing and joking and scrapbooking. I've gotten to hang out with Scottie a couple of times which has been so much freaking fun because I love that boy to death. Jami and I haven't gotten to hang out much but I did get to spend some time with her at her dad's party and that was cool...PLUS she BEST be comin' to play poker with us soon. I also get to spend time with my hunny bear who is so perfect and adorable. I get to go to sleep with him many nights and wake up in his arms in the morning. Granted, I have no money but, meh, who cares. Life isn't about money it's about living life and loving life.
Okay, so Jonathan and I had a fight the other night. I'm not saying this to expose the personal parts of our relationship but to say that he brought alot of things to my attention. He brought things to my attention that I secretly knew but just didn't want to admit to myself. From this point on I am not going to let myself feel like a helpless child lost in a world that I have absolutely no control over. I am going to control my life and stand up for myself. I'm abandoning my dependant personality. I'm going to become independant, positive and motivated to make my life what I want it to be. I've decided that I don't want to move out with Jonathan. Chances are that I'm going to marry him so I can wait a little before starting to spend the rest of my life living with him. By living on my own first I will have the opportunity to experience life independantly which will be wonderful.
That is all...I must go.
Okay, so Jonathan and I had a fight the other night. I'm not saying this to expose the personal parts of our relationship but to say that he brought alot of things to my attention. He brought things to my attention that I secretly knew but just didn't want to admit to myself. From this point on I am not going to let myself feel like a helpless child lost in a world that I have absolutely no control over. I am going to control my life and stand up for myself. I'm abandoning my dependant personality. I'm going to become independant, positive and motivated to make my life what I want it to be. I've decided that I don't want to move out with Jonathan. Chances are that I'm going to marry him so I can wait a little before starting to spend the rest of my life living with him. By living on my own first I will have the opportunity to experience life independantly which will be wonderful.
That is all...I must go.