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[magdoll05]

Ok so I don't really have anything to update about. Jon and I are trying to figure things out as far as expenses of moving out which is fun/stressful. I kinda wish we were engaged when we moved in together, but he's not ready, and I'm probably not ready either. Plus, we both think that you should be engaged for about a year...no less...no more. And I don't know if we're going to be ready to be married in a year. Say we move out October 1st...which is our plan as of now...and we get engaged in September...that means...wait...I completely forgot where I was going with this...oh yeah...so anyway...that means I'd be twenty...well..two months shy of 21 when we got married...and I wouldn't want a fall wedding...I think I'd want one in the spring...well maybe the fall would be ok...I think Spring..then I'd be 21 and I always said that I wanted to be 21 when and if I ever got married cuz I figure if you're not even legal to drink Champaigne at your wedding maybe you should wait...but that obviously doesn't always apply. What the fuck? Why doesn't he propose...bastard...not really, he's wonderful...but now that I think about it..I kinda wish he would propose this fall...damn...but he can't..we don't have the money to afford an engagement ring with trying to save up for everything we'll need to move out into our own apartment and all that...and then once we do move out we'll probably spend alot of time working to afford rent and food and stuff so we won't have alot of time to plan a weddding...of course, based on that logic I'll be about 23 when he proposes...that's four years away...GOD THIS SUCKS! Maybe we'll never get married...we can just be one of those couples that just never gets married and everyone always thinks we're married...but we're not. Then whenever he got some itch to have chillins I could be like...no, we're not married and that would upset our parents and wouldn't be a good environment for the children. Hmm...this just may be the way to go...no people coming out of Maggie's vagina is always a good plan. Still...it'd be so cute to see how he proposed and the ring he picked out...cuz it'd be beautiful cuz he has such spectacular taste...and to tell everyone we're engaged...and plan the wedding together...how fun...and pick my bridesmaids and go with all of them to pick out a wedding dress...and bridesmaid's dresses...and then to have the wedding and see Jon in his tux...OH HOW CUTE HE WOULD BE! Of course, he'd probably not want to wear a tux...he'd wanna wear like a suit or something. Damn...I LOVE men in tuxes...they look so...oh lordy! A man in a tux is a glorious thing. And then we'd go home together...and on our honeymoon and we'd spend forever together...Anyway...enough of my girly ranting. He will propose when he is ready. And until then I will have this little vision in the back of my mind of the whole thing.

Well...time to go drown myself in my insane fantasies...tata