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Well so...for now I'm actually keeping it together. Money's good. Job sucks but I'm doing it. And I'm keeping up on my school work. Wow...how the hell..whatever.
Today's Valentine's Day. Such a stupid holiday. Good for Hallmark and Fannie May...so silly. Anyway.
So I told Jonathan that I wanted us to start spending one day apart during the weekends. He NEVER spends time with his friends anymore and I don't want in a year or more for him to resent me as the reason he has no friends anymore. Besides I don't want his friends to hate me for taking him away. So anyway...I know I want us to...but I hate it because we really only get to spend time together Friday and Saturday...and now we'll be taking away from that. Plus, I get kinda jealous when we do seperate things because he always goes out and has a good time and then asks what I did and my answer is always...um...got home...watched a movie and went to bed. Exciting huh? I've been really stupid and depressed about stuff lately...so don't mind me. Anyway...it just sucks cuz I really don't have any friends to do stuff with. And when I tell him that he's like "well just make friends" and it just kinda hurts because...i can't. i get nervous and say stupid things. I guess I'm just still too self conscious...I'm affraid people will just see me like they did in high school...good for a laugh but too weird to really do anything outside of school with. Or just...what the hell? Anyway...i gotta go.
Bye
Today's Valentine's Day. Such a stupid holiday. Good for Hallmark and Fannie May...so silly. Anyway.
So I told Jonathan that I wanted us to start spending one day apart during the weekends. He NEVER spends time with his friends anymore and I don't want in a year or more for him to resent me as the reason he has no friends anymore. Besides I don't want his friends to hate me for taking him away. So anyway...I know I want us to...but I hate it because we really only get to spend time together Friday and Saturday...and now we'll be taking away from that. Plus, I get kinda jealous when we do seperate things because he always goes out and has a good time and then asks what I did and my answer is always...um...got home...watched a movie and went to bed. Exciting huh? I've been really stupid and depressed about stuff lately...so don't mind me. Anyway...it just sucks cuz I really don't have any friends to do stuff with. And when I tell him that he's like "well just make friends" and it just kinda hurts because...i can't. i get nervous and say stupid things. I guess I'm just still too self conscious...I'm affraid people will just see me like they did in high school...good for a laugh but too weird to really do anything outside of school with. Or just...what the hell? Anyway...i gotta go.
Bye