fukitol. 20mg.
scratch that. ativan fucking sucks. it made my friend freak out in a psychotic episode and it made me feel really weird too. So men are dicks im sorry. I love Josh forever, but calling me from Seattle and saying shit like he will be dedicated to me forever.. and then 5 seconds later telling me to shut my fuckin mouth, bitch... really fucks with my emotions. I had to have him hand the phone to Marcie to explain what the hell was going on because nothing was making sense. And I'm telling myself he probably doesn't remember which is why he hasn't apologized. I really feel deep down that he hates me with the deepest hatred you could possible withhold. I know why and I deserve it. Reason #75354142141 why men are selfish pricks. Last night Ed brought the new girl hes dating with us to Burnt Ramen. Freshly 18. Freshly innocent.. see earlier post. She was a very nice girl, but is the COMPLETE TYPICAL Cal student. Dumb as nails commen sense wise, rich mommy and daddy with a trillion dollar house in the Piedmont hills. Ed could tell I was a little uncomfortable and upset because they were attached at the hip all night. He told me I had no reason to be upset because "WE" never had "anything" in the first place. Excuse me but you put your penis in me for 2 months, monogamy or not.. we still had something you asshole. I've realized I'm completely undesirable. I hate myself. I think people feel sorry for me because I am so pathetic. *Stabby rip stab stab* and all that junk. BTW... DOES ANYONE ACTUALLY FUCKING READ THIS ANYMORE??? I GET NO COMMENTS AND IM GOING TO DELETE IT IF I DON'T START GETTING SOME ACTION. ASSHOLES.