Crossing Into Uncharted Territory...
I've never been here before. I've never wanted to tell someone I love them. Not in this case, at least.
It's just amazing to me. I've never honestly and truly been in a real substantial relationship like this. We're going on three months of dating. He's not my boyfriend, but I don't want to be with anyone else. Every time I see a guy I think, 'well, david has this quality, etc'.
I've never been able to just be myself with someone, whether that's in public, or in private. I'm always thinking 'what will he think if I do this?'. With David, it's different. I can just be relaxed and crazy and weird, and he still adores me. I can just grab his hand randomly, or just walk up to him and kiss him out of the blue, and he's all for it. He'll smile and look at me with those gorgeous blue eyes.
Last night we celebrated his birthday, even though his birthday was over a week ago. I bought some candles from Wal Mart, 'Velvet Rose'. They were amazing. I just love laying in his arms with no worries and no walls up. Just relaxing and talking, and just being ourselves.
We agreed that we need to go out for a night, spend the night under the stars and just hang out. I mentioned out towards Waco was good, but I have no idea where we'll go.
It's like everything is just piecing it's way together. I can see myself growing old with him, I can see us having a family and just being with eachother for the rest of our lives.
Everything is wonderful. I learn something new about him everyday. Like today, I went over after class, and his mom was home. She had made White Chocolate Macademia cookies. She is one amazing cook. She's so sweet and funny. They have a good relationship. Anyway, I learned all about his middle school and highschool years. He's always been smart. He aced the TAAS test, he probably got an amazing score on his SAT's. He wants to be a doctor.
He told me a couple weeks ago that I should know that he won't get married till he's 27, and he won't have kids till he's 30. That is fine with me. That gives us 3 1/2 years to be with eachother and work on our relationship, gives him the next 3 1/2 years to work towards his Bachelors in Pre-Med, and start going to Med School, and me to get a start on my theatre career. I can just see it working out, and I know the next 4 years will be hard (if we do end up staying together) but I'm willing to go for it. I'm ready for a real relationship, I'm ready to put all I'm worth into it, and if it's meant to be, I'm ready for that too.
I've never been happier. He makes me feel so special, and I've never been able to just be laying next to someone and say anything that comes to mind. I mean, night before last he asked me, out of the blue, what my family history is as far as health is concerned. I answered and said that my family has a lot of stuff, and I know most of them. Then he asked when the last time I had a check-up and I said last year, and then said I have an appointment next week for my 'well-woman' and he said 'good, let me know how it goes'. He's just so interested in my life. He's asking things that someone would ask someone that they are planning on being with forever. I don't know, it's just so amazing.
He's so warm, and safe, and funny, and smart, and beautiful, and just plain incredible.
I cannot explain any of it. All I know is this is good, and I want it to last for a long time.
~Love~
It's just amazing to me. I've never honestly and truly been in a real substantial relationship like this. We're going on three months of dating. He's not my boyfriend, but I don't want to be with anyone else. Every time I see a guy I think, 'well, david has this quality, etc'.
I've never been able to just be myself with someone, whether that's in public, or in private. I'm always thinking 'what will he think if I do this?'. With David, it's different. I can just be relaxed and crazy and weird, and he still adores me. I can just grab his hand randomly, or just walk up to him and kiss him out of the blue, and he's all for it. He'll smile and look at me with those gorgeous blue eyes.
Last night we celebrated his birthday, even though his birthday was over a week ago. I bought some candles from Wal Mart, 'Velvet Rose'. They were amazing. I just love laying in his arms with no worries and no walls up. Just relaxing and talking, and just being ourselves.
We agreed that we need to go out for a night, spend the night under the stars and just hang out. I mentioned out towards Waco was good, but I have no idea where we'll go.
It's like everything is just piecing it's way together. I can see myself growing old with him, I can see us having a family and just being with eachother for the rest of our lives.
Everything is wonderful. I learn something new about him everyday. Like today, I went over after class, and his mom was home. She had made White Chocolate Macademia cookies. She is one amazing cook. She's so sweet and funny. They have a good relationship. Anyway, I learned all about his middle school and highschool years. He's always been smart. He aced the TAAS test, he probably got an amazing score on his SAT's. He wants to be a doctor.
He told me a couple weeks ago that I should know that he won't get married till he's 27, and he won't have kids till he's 30. That is fine with me. That gives us 3 1/2 years to be with eachother and work on our relationship, gives him the next 3 1/2 years to work towards his Bachelors in Pre-Med, and start going to Med School, and me to get a start on my theatre career. I can just see it working out, and I know the next 4 years will be hard (if we do end up staying together) but I'm willing to go for it. I'm ready for a real relationship, I'm ready to put all I'm worth into it, and if it's meant to be, I'm ready for that too.
I've never been happier. He makes me feel so special, and I've never been able to just be laying next to someone and say anything that comes to mind. I mean, night before last he asked me, out of the blue, what my family history is as far as health is concerned. I answered and said that my family has a lot of stuff, and I know most of them. Then he asked when the last time I had a check-up and I said last year, and then said I have an appointment next week for my 'well-woman' and he said 'good, let me know how it goes'. He's just so interested in my life. He's asking things that someone would ask someone that they are planning on being with forever. I don't know, it's just so amazing.
He's so warm, and safe, and funny, and smart, and beautiful, and just plain incredible.
I cannot explain any of it. All I know is this is good, and I want it to last for a long time.
~Love~