Paper Bag Head
You ever have those moments where you just want to put a paper bag over your head and forget the world?
Yeah...I'm having one of those moments. I am unemployed at the present time, single, broke, and depressed. I feel like I'm not going anywhere in life...I'm just at a stand-still. I hate my life right now.
I'm hoping that everything will be better soon...I know that it could get worse but I'm praying for better. I think that I really just need to find a job and then things will look up from there. The single thing will need a lot of work. I'm just not date material, I guess. I am happy for my sister and my brother, and I'm glad they found the people that complete them (as cheesy as that sounds). I just wish that I found that person that just gets me....and loves me for me. I guess that will come in time. The broke thing will be fixed with the job thing. The depression is kinda an ever present problem, but it varies in degrees. Right now it is very bad.
I am depressed because my life is not where I want it to be at all. Frankly I never thought that I was going to make it past 18. I just figured that I'd end up dead by then...you know because of something stupid that I did. Now I am here with no freaking plan. I feel like my life hasn't changed since I was like 15 except for where I spend a majority of my time during the day (school or work). I wasted my life....I have wasted about the last 10 years of my life, at least that is what it feels like. I have done nothing in my life for the last 10 years that I can say was really something. I mean something that I did, not an event in my life persay.
I know that the first thing I have to do to make me feel better is to get a job. Then, I want to go back to school...I need to graduate. I am going back for some kind of medical degree. I want to have a career....not just a job.
Well now that I have whined and complained about my little life I am going to go to bed.
Goodnight.
Yeah...I'm having one of those moments. I am unemployed at the present time, single, broke, and depressed. I feel like I'm not going anywhere in life...I'm just at a stand-still. I hate my life right now.
I'm hoping that everything will be better soon...I know that it could get worse but I'm praying for better. I think that I really just need to find a job and then things will look up from there. The single thing will need a lot of work. I'm just not date material, I guess. I am happy for my sister and my brother, and I'm glad they found the people that complete them (as cheesy as that sounds). I just wish that I found that person that just gets me....and loves me for me. I guess that will come in time. The broke thing will be fixed with the job thing. The depression is kinda an ever present problem, but it varies in degrees. Right now it is very bad.
I am depressed because my life is not where I want it to be at all. Frankly I never thought that I was going to make it past 18. I just figured that I'd end up dead by then...you know because of something stupid that I did. Now I am here with no freaking plan. I feel like my life hasn't changed since I was like 15 except for where I spend a majority of my time during the day (school or work). I wasted my life....I have wasted about the last 10 years of my life, at least that is what it feels like. I have done nothing in my life for the last 10 years that I can say was really something. I mean something that I did, not an event in my life persay.
I know that the first thing I have to do to make me feel better is to get a job. Then, I want to go back to school...I need to graduate. I am going back for some kind of medical degree. I want to have a career....not just a job.
Well now that I have whined and complained about my little life I am going to go to bed.
Goodnight.