euthanasia in the twentyfirst century

[maetl]

september eleventh again
and i am seeing lights & hearing sirens.
its sort of surreal.

**

i listen to depressing music
it makes me feel worse
but it makes me feel better
at the same time
perhaps
i am a masochist
i'm not sure

i wrote him a note
that says "i hate you"
bad karma, here i come
but there is
as they say
a thin line
between love
and hate.

i wish i wasn't so caught up
inside of this
its like the stickiest spiderweb
in the wettest, darkest forest

when you wish for death;
when you wish for tragedy
you get it.

one way or another
almost always.