Niq-fit from Hell!!!!
Oh my god! It feels like the weight of the world is resting upon my shoulders right now. I'm craving a ciggy really bad! I couldn't imagine what it'd be like without this damn patch? Wow, I knew it would be hard but this is just ridiculous...seriously, c'mon. This is bigger than me...that's what I tell myself when I hit moments like this. I have to think of my two boys, my wife, and all others who depend on me and love me. I can beat this...I hope. My hands started to shake a bit today...detox's a bitch! On the other hand I can tell a difference when I wake up. I really don't feel like crap. Usually my chest feels ripped after a days smoking. My breathing has gone a little shallow, so I have to try and control that too. We have a movie style popcorn machine here at work. It's taking everything I have not to eat every damn piece. I don't want to gain too much weight. Well I'm off to lunch in a second. I need some time to myself to try and regroup...pray for me.