Hmmm....
So Clint dumped me...but I strangely feel okay with it. I mean, looking back, I wasn't very sure when I first started seeing him, but he liked me. I think I just got excited that somebody can like me like that, so I just jumped at the chance. The past few guys I've been with haven't been because I actually like them/are attracted to them/etc. It's been because they liked me.
I've realized that really, I'm just a lonely person. I mean, I've got AMAZING friends, but there's like a hole. And whenever somebody gets interested, I get excited and say yes regardless of how I actually feel.
I think most of my stress wasn't actually caused by him not paying attention to me. I mean, yeah it was...but it was more like "We're going out. HE SHOULD BE PAYING ATTENTION TO ME!" And I was worried I wasn't concerned enough. I've got a habit of being more worried and concerned than I actually BECAUSE I'm worried I'm not concerned or worried enough...if that makes any sense, lol. I think I've got a bit of explaining to do to people...but it was nice to finally just be friends and let the awkwardness go away. We finally talked about ourselves and about our personal issues, and it felt REALLY good to get it out there in the open. I feel kinda stupid looking back on it, but here's a great chance to get a fresh start and actually start off closer to a few people that I really do enjoy being around. :)
I've realized that really, I'm just a lonely person. I mean, I've got AMAZING friends, but there's like a hole. And whenever somebody gets interested, I get excited and say yes regardless of how I actually feel.
I think most of my stress wasn't actually caused by him not paying attention to me. I mean, yeah it was...but it was more like "We're going out. HE SHOULD BE PAYING ATTENTION TO ME!" And I was worried I wasn't concerned enough. I've got a habit of being more worried and concerned than I actually BECAUSE I'm worried I'm not concerned or worried enough...if that makes any sense, lol. I think I've got a bit of explaining to do to people...but it was nice to finally just be friends and let the awkwardness go away. We finally talked about ourselves and about our personal issues, and it felt REALLY good to get it out there in the open. I feel kinda stupid looking back on it, but here's a great chance to get a fresh start and actually start off closer to a few people that I really do enjoy being around. :)