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Apparently, my headaches were caused because I was severely dehydrated. O_o Odd. My roommate and I ran out of bottles of water, so I just didn't drink anything. I found that I felt a LOT better while I was in the sun and had the sun touching my skin, but I felt really horrible after that. I drank an entire bottle of water at Sean's house, and I drank several glasses at the restaurant; my headaches haven't come back, and i haven't felt dizzy all night.
So Sean, president of our Alliance, invited me to a guys' night out downtown today. There were open art galleries and shops were serving samples, and it was going to be a blast. Well, it still WAS a blast, but we got the times mixed up and ended up going to only two art galleries--which were FABULOUS. I got a lot of ideas for my next art project, a still life. I'm thinking maybe something abstract, but maybe also something non-objective if that's even possible.
Anyways, the guys were Sean, Kurt (the guy who really attacked me about Austin), Brett (another gay guy I didn't know), and a lesbian named Lesley. We all ended up having dinner at Basbeaux, which was amazing--I've never eaten there before! We walked back to Sean's apartment, and Kurt, Lesley and Brett were really tired and went home. Sean wanted to go for a walk, and I was up for it, so I stayed with him. We ended up talking a lot, and we really connected. I wouldn't call it a crush, because I don't want to be sexually active with him, and I also don't want him romantically. I think it's more a mutual respect that's sort of becoming intimate in a platonic way. I've never had that, and I think it's rather exciting. I really had a fun time just walking downtown with him along the canal, and we stopped for a while and just looked out over the river before heading back.
Kurt let it slip that Austin was dating another guy we know (which I've kinda been suspicious of, but haven't really asked him directly). I'm kinda frustrated that he didn't just tell me about it from the beginning, and I'm really frustrated that Lindsey always tries to hide it when I ask her. We're out of high school; please don't start this silly secrecy thing. I'm actually a lot more comfortable with the fact that he's not able to date me because he's with somebody else; I think before, I felt as if it were something wrong with me, or if my timing was bad. Which it was, but I can live with that now. I still like him very much, but I think I've finally let go of the notion that he's "mine" so that I can move on.
I definitely want to do this again the first Friday of next month, when we can actually see the galleries and such. Same group of people--maybe have Austin, Alan, or Cale along this time so I'm not the only freshman, though it WAS refreshing to be around older people. I don't know why, but I'm a lot more comfortable with them. I simultaneously respect/am intimidated by them and I really enjoy their company. It's just such a change of pace and attitude that I think fits with mine more. I'm constantly frustrated by the drama my peers make, but there's none of that with them. I like how we can just be FRIENDS first and foremost, not fodder to feed or start the next drama.
Overall, a GREAT night--not only do I find the cure for whatever was ailing me (whatever being dehydration), but I also got to have a fun night out on the town and make some new friends. SCORE!
So Sean, president of our Alliance, invited me to a guys' night out downtown today. There were open art galleries and shops were serving samples, and it was going to be a blast. Well, it still WAS a blast, but we got the times mixed up and ended up going to only two art galleries--which were FABULOUS. I got a lot of ideas for my next art project, a still life. I'm thinking maybe something abstract, but maybe also something non-objective if that's even possible.
Anyways, the guys were Sean, Kurt (the guy who really attacked me about Austin), Brett (another gay guy I didn't know), and a lesbian named Lesley. We all ended up having dinner at Basbeaux, which was amazing--I've never eaten there before! We walked back to Sean's apartment, and Kurt, Lesley and Brett were really tired and went home. Sean wanted to go for a walk, and I was up for it, so I stayed with him. We ended up talking a lot, and we really connected. I wouldn't call it a crush, because I don't want to be sexually active with him, and I also don't want him romantically. I think it's more a mutual respect that's sort of becoming intimate in a platonic way. I've never had that, and I think it's rather exciting. I really had a fun time just walking downtown with him along the canal, and we stopped for a while and just looked out over the river before heading back.
Kurt let it slip that Austin was dating another guy we know (which I've kinda been suspicious of, but haven't really asked him directly). I'm kinda frustrated that he didn't just tell me about it from the beginning, and I'm really frustrated that Lindsey always tries to hide it when I ask her. We're out of high school; please don't start this silly secrecy thing. I'm actually a lot more comfortable with the fact that he's not able to date me because he's with somebody else; I think before, I felt as if it were something wrong with me, or if my timing was bad. Which it was, but I can live with that now. I still like him very much, but I think I've finally let go of the notion that he's "mine" so that I can move on.
I definitely want to do this again the first Friday of next month, when we can actually see the galleries and such. Same group of people--maybe have Austin, Alan, or Cale along this time so I'm not the only freshman, though it WAS refreshing to be around older people. I don't know why, but I'm a lot more comfortable with them. I simultaneously respect/am intimidated by them and I really enjoy their company. It's just such a change of pace and attitude that I think fits with mine more. I'm constantly frustrated by the drama my peers make, but there's none of that with them. I like how we can just be FRIENDS first and foremost, not fodder to feed or start the next drama.
Overall, a GREAT night--not only do I find the cure for whatever was ailing me (whatever being dehydration), but I also got to have a fun night out on the town and make some new friends. SCORE!