Life in flux, mind in flux.
I've been going over my posting history, and I feel like I've aged 30 years in six months. Not so much in what I wrote, but what had been going on over that time. A big paradigm change came around Xmas, which I've not discussed here - and I might some time in the future, but not yet - and 'support' has been from both sides of the spectrum. In one instance, I've been forced to 'act my age' which, at the end of the day has meant nothing more than losing all my fun and happy side. The other side has been not much more than a pat on the back and a "Good for you," attitude.
Whilst these shouldn't impact my path - for it is mine own - it has, and to this end I've sought solitude. To an extent, that is. I've just recently caught up with friends I've not seen in a very long time, and I can't believe how good it felt! Surrounded by geeks, ok by two of them, reminded me of who I am. I laughed with glee! We talked about things that I'm passionate about, and so are they, which led to hours of conversation. We bounced off computers, playing and showing stuff. Ok I have to admit, this was at the ABC studios in Ultimo, hanging out with the Double the Fist Post Production crew. I had forgotten what it felt like to belong, to feel like I'm doing something worthwhile with my life/career.
The only thing that shits me about the whole experience is that I can't get the pics off my phone - I can't find my card adaptor, otherwise I'd post pictures of the fun little soiré.
It's like I'm rediscovering myself, after facing some hard truths, and am taking control. No more feeling out if control, I can once again reclaim my sense of humour, amongst other things.
Things will be more or less resolved in the next few days, and happiness will return to this blog once more!
In the mean time:
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