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Hi everyone! I promised myself that I'd actually update this thing more frequently with details of my present life and not just youtube videos. :) So here it goes:
Let's start with the end of this past school year. I had to say goodbye to several of my best and closest friends this year because they graduated and I didn't. Yes, I am a Music Education major...and yes, I'm doing an English minor...but I still feel like a loser for taking a "victory lap" or 5th year. At our SAI Senior Farewell ceremony, I actually had a big part to do since I'm the Vice President of Ritual. Imagine this: saying farewell with beautifully written words and then starting crying in the middle of them. Yeah, that's me-- Miss Cry Baby. I just couldn't get out the last words. And then after I started crying, all of the other seniors started crying.....but I couldn't help it. :(:(:( I'm going to miss those girls desperately....and feel sort of lost now without them coming back in the fall.
Speaking of the fall, I have a Senior Recital coming up on November 18th---so mark your calendars!! :) I'm working on the paper and the music right now and am feeling really overwhelmed. Six composers and pieces to research and write a formal paper about in a month or so? I'm only freaking out a tiny bit.....**reaches for her inhaler and her panic pills**.
*AHEM*
One thing that I DO have accomplished for my Senior Recital is that I have my recital dress!! It's black with a peek-a-boo, flower-lined slit of baby blue running down the left side. I only have to make sure that I don't gain any weight and it will be perfect. Actually, I could really do to loose a bit of weight so I can breathe better, anyway (**makes a note to herself**).
Another bit of news is that I have a baby niece now!! Her name is Mia Riley Grace Shepherd, and she was 7 lbs. 10 oz. and born on May 30th, 2007. She looks EXACTLY like my sister's old baby pictures. Every time my mom holds Mia she's like "It's so creepy how much you look like your mama!!". She's really pretty, but I like her better when she isn't screaming at the top of her lungs, which is most of the time. We think that she has either Colic or Acid Reflux, but my stupid sister hasn't taken her to the doctor's yet to find out. Oh well...
About two months ago I traded Patches, my old '91 Buick Century, in for a new one. Her name full name is Poison Ivy (or Ivy for short) and she's a '97 Pontiac Grand Prix. The only bad thing is that the fuel pump went bad a couple days ago, and I do not have any money to fix it. Hooray.
I have several visiting family members in my house right now that refuse to get the hint that they have over stayed their welcome. They might be giving me an ulcer with all the drama they are causing in my house right now. It's to the point where my parents don't even want to come home from work at night. And that's another thing--I don't have any money right now because I've been babysitting my sister's children for free and haven't had the time to get a job. I've sent out several applications, but I guess I'm not wanted. *sigh* I better stop on these two subjects because I'll just go blow up.....
On a lighter note, I have been thinking about a certain guy recently. I've known him for several years and he has shown serious interest in me over the past 2 or so years. I haven't really given him a chance until now because he felt like a brother to me. Another reason for my hesitation probably has to do with my on-again/off-again relationship with Chris. I didn't want him to become some sort of rebound--he didn't deserve that. But I haven't been able to get him off my mind! I even worked up the nerve the other day to text him out of the blue. He replied and then called me, just like that! :) We talked for awhile, but not long because he was on a break from work. How ironic is that--I contact him right when he's on a break? Creepy. I WANT to try this with him, but am very hesitant. It's very hard for me to trust people after the events of the past 3 years. This guy is in the Navy and is stationed in Hawaii for the next 3 years. He smokes like a chimney, drinks like a fish, and cusses like a sailor (ha, a sailor, get it?), he's completely wrong for me.........yet, I can't get him off my mind. His sister, also a friend of mine, has done some research and has found that he is not dating anyone right now. Should I take this risk? Can I trust getting close to someone who I will see once, maybe twice, each year?? I can't afford to get hurt again...
Okay, it's late, so I'm going to stop typing for the time being. Any words of advice? I hope everyone is having a great summer.
Maeg*Shep
Let's start with the end of this past school year. I had to say goodbye to several of my best and closest friends this year because they graduated and I didn't. Yes, I am a Music Education major...and yes, I'm doing an English minor...but I still feel like a loser for taking a "victory lap" or 5th year. At our SAI Senior Farewell ceremony, I actually had a big part to do since I'm the Vice President of Ritual. Imagine this: saying farewell with beautifully written words and then starting crying in the middle of them. Yeah, that's me-- Miss Cry Baby. I just couldn't get out the last words. And then after I started crying, all of the other seniors started crying.....but I couldn't help it. :(:(:( I'm going to miss those girls desperately....and feel sort of lost now without them coming back in the fall.
Speaking of the fall, I have a Senior Recital coming up on November 18th---so mark your calendars!! :) I'm working on the paper and the music right now and am feeling really overwhelmed. Six composers and pieces to research and write a formal paper about in a month or so? I'm only freaking out a tiny bit.....**reaches for her inhaler and her panic pills**.
*AHEM*
One thing that I DO have accomplished for my Senior Recital is that I have my recital dress!! It's black with a peek-a-boo, flower-lined slit of baby blue running down the left side. I only have to make sure that I don't gain any weight and it will be perfect. Actually, I could really do to loose a bit of weight so I can breathe better, anyway (**makes a note to herself**).
Another bit of news is that I have a baby niece now!! Her name is Mia Riley Grace Shepherd, and she was 7 lbs. 10 oz. and born on May 30th, 2007. She looks EXACTLY like my sister's old baby pictures. Every time my mom holds Mia she's like "It's so creepy how much you look like your mama!!". She's really pretty, but I like her better when she isn't screaming at the top of her lungs, which is most of the time. We think that she has either Colic or Acid Reflux, but my stupid sister hasn't taken her to the doctor's yet to find out. Oh well...
About two months ago I traded Patches, my old '91 Buick Century, in for a new one. Her name full name is Poison Ivy (or Ivy for short) and she's a '97 Pontiac Grand Prix. The only bad thing is that the fuel pump went bad a couple days ago, and I do not have any money to fix it. Hooray.
I have several visiting family members in my house right now that refuse to get the hint that they have over stayed their welcome. They might be giving me an ulcer with all the drama they are causing in my house right now. It's to the point where my parents don't even want to come home from work at night. And that's another thing--I don't have any money right now because I've been babysitting my sister's children for free and haven't had the time to get a job. I've sent out several applications, but I guess I'm not wanted. *sigh* I better stop on these two subjects because I'll just go blow up.....
On a lighter note, I have been thinking about a certain guy recently. I've known him for several years and he has shown serious interest in me over the past 2 or so years. I haven't really given him a chance until now because he felt like a brother to me. Another reason for my hesitation probably has to do with my on-again/off-again relationship with Chris. I didn't want him to become some sort of rebound--he didn't deserve that. But I haven't been able to get him off my mind! I even worked up the nerve the other day to text him out of the blue. He replied and then called me, just like that! :) We talked for awhile, but not long because he was on a break from work. How ironic is that--I contact him right when he's on a break? Creepy. I WANT to try this with him, but am very hesitant. It's very hard for me to trust people after the events of the past 3 years. This guy is in the Navy and is stationed in Hawaii for the next 3 years. He smokes like a chimney, drinks like a fish, and cusses like a sailor (ha, a sailor, get it?), he's completely wrong for me.........yet, I can't get him off my mind. His sister, also a friend of mine, has done some research and has found that he is not dating anyone right now. Should I take this risk? Can I trust getting close to someone who I will see once, maybe twice, each year?? I can't afford to get hurt again...
Okay, it's late, so I'm going to stop typing for the time being. Any words of advice? I hope everyone is having a great summer.
Maeg*Shep