finally....an update!
it's been almost a month since my last update. Why? I've just been so busy...or either to lazy to write about my life. Hows it been? It's been pretty good. Of course there have been the days when I want to kill myself or kill someone...haha, jokin.... But thanks to some people...they can make me feel wonderful. Even sitting here and writing this is making me NOT want to.......I kinda hate this. This used to be a place for me to write about my thoughts....feelings...memories. Maybe I just don't care anymore.....and I don't need a journal. Hm...anyways, I'll try to write anyways. The most recent thing....HAHA....some skank hoe nasty druggie guy tried to pay everyone 50 bucks to woop me.....HAHAHA. That seriously cracks me up. Of COURSE I am going to say something to someone if they are talking shit about my friend...or if someone is CHEATING on them. What kind of friend would sit back and listen to it and not do anything? I don't know about you guys.....but a true friend is gonna stick with you and have your back. Maybe I am just too nice...maybe I'm too much of a drama starter....I don't care though....
Derek and I are great...well sometimes we are and sometimes we aren't. So...who knows. I mean...he means everything to me. I love him so very much. I can only see my future involving him.....weird? who cares...that'show I am and I have NEVER felt this way. There are times when I am so happy with him that I cannot take it. The times when we are laying beside each other...and just that one look into his eyes...I know we were meant to be. It's so nice staring back at the one you love who is so perfect in your eyes. It's so nice knowing that he loves me more than anything...and that he would never do anything to hurt me. I think of all of the crap we have been through...but look at us...we are still going so strong after all of this time and after all of the crap. How could I possibly ask for more? I am so moved by him. How could it bet any better than this? Sometimes I don't even care about anything else. Especially when I am in his arms...everything feels so right. All my other worries vanish....he could make anything go away. He's the best. He does everything for me.
sorry...I had to write about him.
Blah...yesterday I went down with him to Louisville at 6:30!!!!! in the morning..... omg, I about died. Of course I fell asleep on the way up there....I remember waking up to him singing....Tequila makes her clothes fall off....haha. But uh...he had to work so I just slept in his room at his appt. As soon as we walked in...Derek was like...I don't know any of these people. I guess his roomate threw a party...and some people were still there. So while I was "trying" to sleep I heard all about their drunken stories.... Sooo...then we played Raquetball. Which was awesome. It was definitely different though. I ran right into a wall.....haha.
"I will kill all of those effing squirrels...!!!" "I could just see you on the news ripping their heads off!" "I would....damn those things...they always run away."
lol...omg, they have a million squirrels down there...even the white ones. I hate them.....
we went home where my mammy made us a lovely supper...vegetarian steak...yummmy. We played DDR...of course I stomped his ace. We are supposed to make his parents some food tonight. Mammy, Pappy, him, and I were all supposed to play tennis today....but uhh...probably not. I have cheerleading today....kill me....I hate it so dang much. I am definitely not going to be in it next year. I want to have a life without cheerleading. Don't get me wrong...I love it when games come around. Well...sometimes. Just people piss me off. I can barely handle it this year....but I'm sticking through it. I mean how cool would it be with only 3 j.v cheerleaders? I won't let my girls down. Even though I would be so happy not being involved in it.
School still sucks. It's not as stressful right now...but I give it some time.
Woah..it's November....whatever happened to October? WOOOOOOOOOOOOOW.
Wellllll....I guess that's all for now.
Derek and I are great...well sometimes we are and sometimes we aren't. So...who knows. I mean...he means everything to me. I love him so very much. I can only see my future involving him.....weird? who cares...that'show I am and I have NEVER felt this way. There are times when I am so happy with him that I cannot take it. The times when we are laying beside each other...and just that one look into his eyes...I know we were meant to be. It's so nice staring back at the one you love who is so perfect in your eyes. It's so nice knowing that he loves me more than anything...and that he would never do anything to hurt me. I think of all of the crap we have been through...but look at us...we are still going so strong after all of this time and after all of the crap. How could I possibly ask for more? I am so moved by him. How could it bet any better than this? Sometimes I don't even care about anything else. Especially when I am in his arms...everything feels so right. All my other worries vanish....he could make anything go away. He's the best. He does everything for me.
sorry...I had to write about him.
Blah...yesterday I went down with him to Louisville at 6:30!!!!! in the morning..... omg, I about died. Of course I fell asleep on the way up there....I remember waking up to him singing....Tequila makes her clothes fall off....haha. But uh...he had to work so I just slept in his room at his appt. As soon as we walked in...Derek was like...I don't know any of these people. I guess his roomate threw a party...and some people were still there. So while I was "trying" to sleep I heard all about their drunken stories.... Sooo...then we played Raquetball. Which was awesome. It was definitely different though. I ran right into a wall.....haha.
"I will kill all of those effing squirrels...!!!" "I could just see you on the news ripping their heads off!" "I would....damn those things...they always run away."
lol...omg, they have a million squirrels down there...even the white ones. I hate them.....
we went home where my mammy made us a lovely supper...vegetarian steak...yummmy. We played DDR...of course I stomped his ace. We are supposed to make his parents some food tonight. Mammy, Pappy, him, and I were all supposed to play tennis today....but uhh...probably not. I have cheerleading today....kill me....I hate it so dang much. I am definitely not going to be in it next year. I want to have a life without cheerleading. Don't get me wrong...I love it when games come around. Well...sometimes. Just people piss me off. I can barely handle it this year....but I'm sticking through it. I mean how cool would it be with only 3 j.v cheerleaders? I won't let my girls down. Even though I would be so happy not being involved in it.
School still sucks. It's not as stressful right now...but I give it some time.
Woah..it's November....whatever happened to October? WOOOOOOOOOOOOOW.
Wellllll....I guess that's all for now.