Aug 06, 2009 01:44
I am an iconoclast for being 23 and single, so says the southern institution of marriage. But, I can't apologize for my belief that marriage is not so holy. I can't apologize for the fact that marriage isn't the first, the last, the only important thing I am going to do with my life. I can't apologize for my need to stretch my arms around something else than my "soul mate". I have a life to live; I have a life to love. Actually, the thing I have the biggest problem with is the ceremony. I just think it is SOO stupid, and really do refuse to get on board with it. I am just getting so tired of people getting in touch with me after 5 years because they want me "to be a part of their big day". That's bullshit. They just want a shiny new gift to be a part of their big, new house they can't afford. It would be different if I was actually friends with these people on more than a bi-annual basis. I could flash a smile for friends like that...but for anybody else, I can't allow myself to be fake and act benign. What you think is holy and what I think is holy are two wholly different things.
I don't know where I get this from, but I feel very strongly about it.
I don't want to take anybody's dream away from them, but no one should try to push a dream onto me that has never been mine. It's not my ideal situation, and it makes me feel uncomfortable. The not-so-unique traditions of mushiness is just too showy for me.
I meant to talk about movies and how inspiring they are. Guess this is where the inspiration led me.... to where most people would call nowhere because no one else is there.... but where I would like to call everywhere because anything is still possible. Marriage is a dead end if you ask me....... for now.