I miss my mom
The beginning of 2010 has been hard. I got laid off, and we're trying to buy our first place, which is turning out to be more stressful than I might be able to handle. All of the stress and interviews and paperwork is just making me feel like a wimp. I wish my mom was around to tell me what I want I need to hear, but in a way that makes me feel better. She was great at that.
Interviewing is a soul sucking experience. Every day you get up, get gussied up in your best clothes and do your hair. Only to drive some place, wait an excruciating amount of time, then be lead into an interview with someone who looks like they don't give a crap, about a job that probably will be just as soul sucking.
After weeks of interviewing, I got 3 offers, and none of them are awesome. None of them are awful, but I don't want to start a job just to hate it in a month and in turn make my life suck around it. I wish I wasn't looking for a job - I wish I was looking for a career. But I didn't work hard enough at school to go anywhere. I worked so hard in High School to get a scholarship, then in college I fizzled out. I graduated, but no where near the top of my class, and I've done nothing with my degree. I don't know what to do with my degree, except go back to school.
The home buying experience has been every bit as stressful as you hear about, and then some. We found a place we liked quickly enough, due to doing research before hand, but it went down hill from there. The offer process was ghetto and after they accepted our offer, we found out the HOA wasn't HOA approved. So we got an inspection, but now we're waiting to find out if the complex is going to get approved before we do anything else. Oh, and our close date is 02-26. 11 days from today.
On top of all of that, I have the winter blues. I feel cold, and lonely, and depressed, and a lot of that will go away when the sun finally decides to come back out, but I don't think I'll feel better until I find a good job, and get the condo shit done. And I don't know if I'll mentally survive until then, or if it'll break me. I'm trying to be strong, but my efforts haven't been enough lately, and it's been a long time since I just felt helpless.
Interviewing is a soul sucking experience. Every day you get up, get gussied up in your best clothes and do your hair. Only to drive some place, wait an excruciating amount of time, then be lead into an interview with someone who looks like they don't give a crap, about a job that probably will be just as soul sucking.
After weeks of interviewing, I got 3 offers, and none of them are awesome. None of them are awful, but I don't want to start a job just to hate it in a month and in turn make my life suck around it. I wish I wasn't looking for a job - I wish I was looking for a career. But I didn't work hard enough at school to go anywhere. I worked so hard in High School to get a scholarship, then in college I fizzled out. I graduated, but no where near the top of my class, and I've done nothing with my degree. I don't know what to do with my degree, except go back to school.
The home buying experience has been every bit as stressful as you hear about, and then some. We found a place we liked quickly enough, due to doing research before hand, but it went down hill from there. The offer process was ghetto and after they accepted our offer, we found out the HOA wasn't HOA approved. So we got an inspection, but now we're waiting to find out if the complex is going to get approved before we do anything else. Oh, and our close date is 02-26. 11 days from today.
On top of all of that, I have the winter blues. I feel cold, and lonely, and depressed, and a lot of that will go away when the sun finally decides to come back out, but I don't think I'll feel better until I find a good job, and get the condo shit done. And I don't know if I'll mentally survive until then, or if it'll break me. I'm trying to be strong, but my efforts haven't been enough lately, and it's been a long time since I just felt helpless.