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Thursday night I got drunk. Quite drunk. I was feeling wired and energized all day, hadn't jacked off in a few days, so I knew I was gonna hit the taps hard. It didn't help that the beer was flat (goes down easy) and I didn't know most of the people i was drinking with. So I don't remember the end of the night, and woke up the next day to find the lights on, chairs moved around (where did the hand chair come from?), liquor cabinet open with bottles spread out on the countertop, and a bowl of soup in the microwave. Feeling quite dizzy but not sick, I heated the bowl of soup and ate it, being rather spicy it was probably not the best thing to eat on a raw stomach. Went back to bed (I know I know, the worst thing to do) and sure enough started feeling worse and worse, got the sweats, got that nasty bile-ish salivation, went to the bathroom and fed my breakfast soup to the alligators in the sewer. Back to bed. Slept a little bit, half sleeping at best, with crazy fever dreams, including an auditory hallucination of some never-released Jewel outtakes from the Spirit era; oh how i love the occasional Jewel dream, whether it's her and I falling in love or hearing her play unreleased music. Back to the toilet throwing up a little more soup and water. And again, and again, at higher frequency each time with more bile, feeling worse and worse developing a dehydration headache because my body won't absorb the water I drink (reminds me of that time I took 2 hits of X and puked and hallucinated and overheated 'cause I couldn't absorb the water I drank), dreams descended into hallucinogenic nightmares....
finally the purging ended, I had lost 5 pounds (125 lbs, lowest I've been since age 12!) and felt so weak I almost wanted to phone a friend to bring me some food, or maybe take to to the hospital (too bad the ER is closed) as I was having near-seizure sensations, weird electrical shocks down my spine and in my brain, etc.
woke up yesterday out of a dream in which I was electrocuted and started a fire, one of those dreams where you were just about to die but you wake up with a start.
Seems things are back to normal now, saturday night, home alone, probably gonna get high and watch tv, or if i feel motivated i'll play some music, listen to music, or read. i think i need a wife to take care of me. anyone?
finally the purging ended, I had lost 5 pounds (125 lbs, lowest I've been since age 12!) and felt so weak I almost wanted to phone a friend to bring me some food, or maybe take to to the hospital (too bad the ER is closed) as I was having near-seizure sensations, weird electrical shocks down my spine and in my brain, etc.
woke up yesterday out of a dream in which I was electrocuted and started a fire, one of those dreams where you were just about to die but you wake up with a start.
Seems things are back to normal now, saturday night, home alone, probably gonna get high and watch tv, or if i feel motivated i'll play some music, listen to music, or read. i think i need a wife to take care of me. anyone?