Fic -- Don't You Dare Look Back

[madwomanpoems]

Title: Don’t You Dare Look Back
Author: madwomanpoems
Pairings: Jo/Camille, Camille/Lucy
Rating: PG probably
Warnings: ANGST, some non-descript sexual activity
Disclaimer: This isn’t mine guys. I actually don’t own anything and I haven’t acquired anything and I’m just a big vat of nothing without even owning the vat.
Word count: ~5,500
Summary: Camille’s phone bings

Comments

[madwomanpoems]

Aw fuck. I thought I caught them all. It's all fixed now. thank you so much. For reading and catching my stupid mistake. And for your offer and I AM SORRY THAT I AM SO MEAN AND HEARTBREAKING BUT I JUST CANNOT HELP IT. Jo is the most heartbreaking character ever because, you know, Camille is pretty okay after this and she is actually in a better place than she has been in a long time. But Jo isn't. Jo is pretty damn messy after the whole thing. IT really doesn't go so well for her for awhile after. Things are just so hard for Jo and that breaks my heart and it would have been such a different fic from Jo's perspective. like, in every possible way. but Camille's felt safer. like there was a clear jumping and landing point. because Jo pretty much goes out of the frying pan and into the fryer of denial and angst and confusion and pain. like, she starts off pretty numb, imo, and ends up just like, laying on her couch and not washing her hair for four days and wishing she was at the palmwoods where Kendall would check up on her and James would wash her hair and Carlos would sing to her and play games but then she realizes that she wouldn't be in the damn situation if she was at the palmwoods because she'd have camille and it's a damn horrible cycle for her for awhile. eventually she is okay. and eventually she comes to terms with her life but it's way messy. camille telling lucy was nothing in comparison.

that was a bizarre tangent that i just went on.

i apologize.

[shisou_eimin]

MY GOD WOMAN WHY WOULD YOU TELL ME THIS :| :| alkfjdalkjd now i'm thinking about this from Jo' POV and just aakfdja my heart. i hate you :|

but that's kind of how it is in my btr/spn fic that i'm going to be writing for the recast big bang. they both feel for each other, they just never acted on it, mostly because Jo held back and just. it's really heartbreaking when i think about it and i hate myself for even putting them through that but afjd it's SPN and everything needs to be tragic.

and now we're even on the random tangent lol