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I just submitted something to Sex, Etc. and I decided to post it on my LiveJournal. So yeah. Here goes:
I once took a quiz online about what would happen in my future sex life - you know, how many people I'll do it with, where the first place I do it will be, that kind of thing. For some reason, I was expecting to be very pleased and content with my results. So you can imagine how shocked I was when, told my number of sex partners, I was presented with a big, fat, red "0' on my computer screen.
As cheesy as it sounds, I was upset. I mean, it was just a quiz. What does a stupid computer know about my life? So I tried to ignore it.
But what if this quiz is right -what if it does never happen? This prospect is really scary for me. I've been always been the kind of girl who envisioned herself happily married, or at least with a long term partner. I want to have someone to spend my life with, or at least someone I can really talk to. But now I'm confronted with the reality that I might not even be able to find a one night stand. Am I really THAT repulsive?
But, then I have a realization - maybe my standards are too high. I want a guy to undertand me before I have sex with him. I want someone who shares my views. I want someone who likes me for me. Basically, I want to be in love. Is that really too much to ask?
I've met by fair share of boys in the nearly fifteen years I've been alive. But none I've found come even close to that. There was one guy who I thought might be it. But he's made it abundantly clear that he doesn't care for me in that way.
So what I am supposed to do? Lower my standards? Wait it out? A lot of adults I've talked to tell me that teenage boys aren't exactly dating material until they've reached college, at least. But what if they never become dating material?
I guess I'll just have to wait and see.
I once took a quiz online about what would happen in my future sex life - you know, how many people I'll do it with, where the first place I do it will be, that kind of thing. For some reason, I was expecting to be very pleased and content with my results. So you can imagine how shocked I was when, told my number of sex partners, I was presented with a big, fat, red "0' on my computer screen.
As cheesy as it sounds, I was upset. I mean, it was just a quiz. What does a stupid computer know about my life? So I tried to ignore it.
But what if this quiz is right -what if it does never happen? This prospect is really scary for me. I've been always been the kind of girl who envisioned herself happily married, or at least with a long term partner. I want to have someone to spend my life with, or at least someone I can really talk to. But now I'm confronted with the reality that I might not even be able to find a one night stand. Am I really THAT repulsive?
But, then I have a realization - maybe my standards are too high. I want a guy to undertand me before I have sex with him. I want someone who shares my views. I want someone who likes me for me. Basically, I want to be in love. Is that really too much to ask?
I've met by fair share of boys in the nearly fifteen years I've been alive. But none I've found come even close to that. There was one guy who I thought might be it. But he's made it abundantly clear that he doesn't care for me in that way.
So what I am supposed to do? Lower my standards? Wait it out? A lot of adults I've talked to tell me that teenage boys aren't exactly dating material until they've reached college, at least. But what if they never become dating material?
I guess I'll just have to wait and see.