It's all mixed up...
Friday night, went to a party around 11pm... didn't really know anyone there except the girl I went there with. Started out with some captain morgan's, drank a few bacardi silvers and a few bacardi raspberrys... then took a shot of southern comfort for the hell of it - didn't like it. Socialized, bitched about love, and a bunch of other things I don't remember... crashed out around 5:30am.
Woke up about 9:45am, and went out to breakfast with Cambry, EJ, Brooke and her boyfriend, I think... this other guy Jeff met us there. EJ bought me breakfast, which was really nice of him. Cambry gave me a ride to Nicole's and I just crawled up on her bed and let myself be hung-over...left a couple of hours later to buy some concert tickets for friday (a local band is having a cd release party) then walked around town for awhile... did a lot of thinking.
Today, I broke down crying again... I know that it's easy to sit here and pretend not to care about someone, but in reality, it never works because I *know* I care, so fucking much, and it hurts. I wish it didn't hurt, I wish I didn't know how to love, but I do... and I want it to go away.
Woke up about 9:45am, and went out to breakfast with Cambry, EJ, Brooke and her boyfriend, I think... this other guy Jeff met us there. EJ bought me breakfast, which was really nice of him. Cambry gave me a ride to Nicole's and I just crawled up on her bed and let myself be hung-over...left a couple of hours later to buy some concert tickets for friday (a local band is having a cd release party) then walked around town for awhile... did a lot of thinking.
Today, I broke down crying again... I know that it's easy to sit here and pretend not to care about someone, but in reality, it never works because I *know* I care, so fucking much, and it hurts. I wish it didn't hurt, I wish I didn't know how to love, but I do... and I want it to go away.