Add It Up
Life has slowed down alot in the past few months. The last three months feels like nine or ten. Maybe because I haven't been doing much? Maybe because I've been thinking alot? I really am not too sure why, but it's all going slow. On top of that, I feel OLD. I don't mean I feel weak, or tired, or anything like that. In January, I turned 25. Since then, I just get the feeling that it's gonna be no time until I'm an old man. I've never had this kind of worry before. But what bothers me the most about it is the fact that i'm 25. ONLY 25. I'm not in my mid thirties, halfway through life; I'm young. Ahh, I don't know, but I feel like I need to accomplish so much more, and I have very little time to do so.
I'd like to pretend that life is gonna get better; that perhaps it's full of fun and suprises: but I know I've seen all the suprises I'm going to see. Life is a series of single-minded conquests (for men, atleast). As a small child, it's usually something like getting the newest toy away from your brother/sister, or something. Then it's getting the high score on the latest video game. Riding the fastest on the Dirt-bike trail. Running the farthest in track. Chasing after a pair of tits/legs/eyes. And that's pretty much the last "conquest" of a man's life --really. At, what, 12-15, guys begin this conquest, and the unlucky ones might end up waiting until their early thirties...maybe more...before they even accomplish it. But, regardless, after that, what's left...? School? College? A job?
I rest my case here as I've always felt -- Whether we, as men, believe it or not, the one thing that we strive for for most of our young adult life is the very reason there's nothing left to try and achieve as we get older. Not that women are evil (Which I've said before, and no, I don't believe that.) But that men are so single-minded they forget to create reasons to live beyond the next pair of blue eyes. (or green or brown.) And when getting laid is no longer an important factor in life? What's left? Companionship with people who either have been so burnt by men like us that they don't want it, or peolpe who "aren't ready" to "settle down". We don't even bother to create reasons beyond the next day to do anything.
So it boils down to Sex, Money (or Job), and Love...and, sadly, it's usually in that order.
So I've always known why the guys who place sex at the bottom of the list always get shafted in the end.
The guys looking for sex get their first.
I hate getting shafted, but life isn't fair.
Lyric of the moment
I'll take 1, 1, 1 cuz you left me
and 2, 2, 2 for my family
and 3, 3, 3 for my heartache
and 4, 4, 4 for my headaches
and 5, 5, 5 for my lonely
and 6, 6, 6 for my sorrow
and 7, 7 n-n-n-no tomorrow
and 8, 8, I forgot what 8 was for but
9, 9, 9 for a lost god
and 10, 10, 10, 10 for everything everything everything everything
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--"Kiss Off" - Violent Femmes
I'd like to pretend that life is gonna get better; that perhaps it's full of fun and suprises: but I know I've seen all the suprises I'm going to see. Life is a series of single-minded conquests (for men, atleast). As a small child, it's usually something like getting the newest toy away from your brother/sister, or something. Then it's getting the high score on the latest video game. Riding the fastest on the Dirt-bike trail. Running the farthest in track. Chasing after a pair of tits/legs/eyes. And that's pretty much the last "conquest" of a man's life --really. At, what, 12-15, guys begin this conquest, and the unlucky ones might end up waiting until their early thirties...maybe more...before they even accomplish it. But, regardless, after that, what's left...? School? College? A job?
I rest my case here as I've always felt -- Whether we, as men, believe it or not, the one thing that we strive for for most of our young adult life is the very reason there's nothing left to try and achieve as we get older. Not that women are evil (Which I've said before, and no, I don't believe that.) But that men are so single-minded they forget to create reasons to live beyond the next pair of blue eyes. (or green or brown.) And when getting laid is no longer an important factor in life? What's left? Companionship with people who either have been so burnt by men like us that they don't want it, or peolpe who "aren't ready" to "settle down". We don't even bother to create reasons beyond the next day to do anything.
So it boils down to Sex, Money (or Job), and Love...and, sadly, it's usually in that order.
So I've always known why the guys who place sex at the bottom of the list always get shafted in the end.
The guys looking for sex get their first.
I hate getting shafted, but life isn't fair.
Lyric of the moment
I'll take 1, 1, 1 cuz you left me
and 2, 2, 2 for my family
and 3, 3, 3 for my heartache
and 4, 4, 4 for my headaches
and 5, 5, 5 for my lonely
and 6, 6, 6 for my sorrow
and 7, 7 n-n-n-no tomorrow
and 8, 8, I forgot what 8 was for but
9, 9, 9 for a lost god
and 10, 10, 10, 10 for everything everything everything everything
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--"Kiss Off" - Violent Femmes