Mental Exhaustion
Still waiting on some prospects for extra work. But I'm sick of working extra. Rob just keeps telling me we can't afford for me to work just full time. His part time job is going to bring in less than $200.00/week net. I just can't physically do all this anymore. Or maybe I can but I don't feel like it. If I give in I'm letting my family down. On Friday I am interviewing for a lab manager job at NKU, my alma mater. It has great benefits, free college for me, Rob, and the kids (at 6 hours/semester), but would cause me to take a paycut. I talked to Rob about it and he says, "NO WAY" we need you to make even more money, you can't take that job. I would LOVE to have this job. It's agonizing! It's fucking killing me. I know it hasn't even been offered to me yet, but I'm already sad about it. Managing the lab in my old department, taking classes, easy schedule, flexible, major holidays off, long weeks off at Christmas and Thanksgiving just like I have here....le sigh, le heave...