Aug 23, 2004 14:42
So I've turned the phone off last night when my buddy Amanda called me and explained to me that it had called her twice friday night... evidently she had messages with animals in the background so I'm guessing it was when I left it in the historical barn. New phone is here but needs to be charged for 48 hours so I'm back to ground zero.
On another note I've just recently discovered that my buddy Jessie or usagi_dragon has a whole lot of issues with me that are slightly entertaining. I've washed my hands of the whole thing. She says she still cares about me blah blah blah then goes and says that I've been calling her and wanting to hang out with her a whole bunch which is kinda funny because I haven't. As a matter of fact I've seen her once since she was back because I've had 7 teenagers living in my house that I was taking care of and had fair to deal with.
She made mention of friends that I don't talk to anymore and to be just it's my business who I talk to and who I don't. I like the friends I have I don't really want to keep a bunch of people around who I think do things that are wrong. I've known that Jessie has talked to them for years, she and Cherie have been friends since gradeschool and that's fine but I don't like her and I don't think it's right she expects me too or that I should like her because Jessie does.
An interesting side note is she said I get her messeges and I had my sisters phone actually I didn't, not that it matters, I had no idea it was a bonding time with her father because I had my shitty phone, my sister had actually given hers to a friend. However that doesn't matter, the night was interesting. I learned a lot about someone I was very illusioned about.
This whole rant equates to I don't have time for her attitude, she thinks she knows everything fine. She wants to call me names fine. But I don't think she should disguise it behind my attitude, I'm not the reason she felt the need to post a hate rant. Her own anger and issues were there, not mine. That didn't all come from one night in a whole two week she'd seen or talked to me. It's hard when someone knows just what to say to hurt you and she managed it and the whole smashing eggshells thing wasn't true but her post did smash something, a friendship. I'm not willing to put myself into a postion like that again with her. At the moment after hearing what she thinks of me or has decided to think of me I don't even want to talk to her and that's a personal choice it's not anger it's just time.
I have friends and my own life and I don't need the baggage from someone who thinks they're mature and can look down on me and call me names. Her insulting me saying I have no friends because of the way I treat people was hurtful but I am very thankful that I do have friends who assured me it wasn't true. You guys are great and always there when I need you.
I was rather offended at the way she handled it if she'd had problems with me I don't think she should have posted a "eat shit and die mother fucker" post and then as a side note said she still cared about me because she doesn't. Nobody who says things like that has any semblence of caring for someone or they wouldn't do it. It was lip service to make her sound less mean and hateful but whatever she needs to do to live with herself.
I'm posting all of this and getting it out because due to the nature of the last three days and my hectic schedule I am not going to continue with this live journal account. Today is my last day in Moses Lake. I started it only because my other friends were here and it was a great way of keeping up. Hirtzknocker, Ice_dragon, Newtonion Johnny, Purplestain... others I'm forgetting we'll keep in touch! Wish me luck in my new home! Just not here because I won't be reading it. This is officially a dead account. If I get time I may start another account but this one now holds negative energy. Good-bye everyone good luck!