Mar 02, 2006 12:08
I didn't realized that I have been so well trained at covering up my feelings for the sake of others. I have been just covering & covering up how I really feel for so long that is comes as second nature to me know. Ever since I was in high school in various leadership rolls I have learned to show only happiness to the crowd and forget about whatever I was upset about or just do what I have to do with a huge smile on my face without blinking. What a horrible thing to teach a kid? Although, if you really want to be a leader, you have to learn to do this. I am debating if I want to be a leader or not.
The kid apologized for cussing me out (it made me smile, big). I am happy that he did because now I think of him as human, not just a little fuck tard.