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Life, it's the only thing that you get for free. Life has really been happening to me for the past month. My job, my "friends", my family, etc.... It's been hard, but I am slowly pulling through. I am not rushing to be happy for the comfort of others. I am just dealing with being strong for my mom & working through how I feel about losing the monarchs of our family. One day I will have to step up and be a rock for my family. I have been running from my feelings so long I don't know if I am ready to take on the responsibility. I feel pain, loss, and regret when it comes to my grandfather, my grandma, and my aunt Jackie. Why couldn't I have them with me longer in this world? Doesn't the Lord know that I need them? That I don't really feel like I had enough time to know them and understand their thoughts and wishes?
It's so time for me to stop being a big kid and having people take care of me. I am 25 years old, i.e. I will be 30 in a few years. What have I accomplished? Have I spent my life getting drunk & partying? I am going to Japan to grow up without being coddled or petted. Sure, I will have support, but its time for me to strike out on my own & become a woman.
Pain & Happiness, what a weird combination, but that about sums it up.
-T.
It's so time for me to stop being a big kid and having people take care of me. I am 25 years old, i.e. I will be 30 in a few years. What have I accomplished? Have I spent my life getting drunk & partying? I am going to Japan to grow up without being coddled or petted. Sure, I will have support, but its time for me to strike out on my own & become a woman.
Pain & Happiness, what a weird combination, but that about sums it up.
-T.