dum dum dumm
Wow. I definitely haven’t written in this thing for a while. I guess that’s my usual explanation and defense on the matter… I guess a quick re-cap is more than over due…
I took the bartending course. Granted I’m not very motivated to look for any jobs, I am really glad I took the course. It just opened me up to so much! When I we went to Seaside and Albany I was pretty well known for the skills-but that is a story we’ll tell later.
Florida was amazing. Like every trip it had its ups and downs, but it’s ups were REALLY up (even though it’s downs were $700 down…). I broke free from my over a year hibernation and hooked up with 8 guys! I say that proud only because I am, and deserve to be. Primarily because I still got the V-Card, and I hooked up with some FINE boys: Craig-Drew-Chris-Dylan-Mike-Guilanno-Cristopho-Sam. All wonderful boys/men. Esp. Sam… lalalalaaaa!
Prom was good. I went with Desirae, and afterwards we went to Seaside where I played Bartender (1st skills)… whattup
We’re gonna skip to Albany now. It was fun. I made a couple of new friends that I think are going to turn into those people that I say, “Yeah we were friends in college”. I don’t know what I want to major in, and that scares me. I just feel like I am already behind and not even there yet. My courses kinda cover all grounds tho, Sociology (which I think I want to replace with psychology), Business Law (maybe a lawyer?), Creative writing (Writer?), and some classes on diversity explained in the media. Here’s the thing about my future… if I want to be a doctor, which would be dope, I need to take all those math classes and I SUCK at math! Sciences I’m pretty good at (except physics because IT’S A MATH CLASS) but math I am horrible and I hate it… if I want to be a lawyer there’s just mad studying to do. I think I’m kind of leaning towards lawyer just because it seems a lot more feasible. For example, I could major in English and still be able to fall back on being a teacher, I could make MAD money, math wouldn’t be THAT much of an issue and I could help people. The cool thing about being a doctor though is that there’s a lot more hands-on helping people that I think I would enjoy. Law just seems so much more corrupt… ahh idk. I should probably wait till college starts and see how it goes, but I was also thinking of taking summer classes. I wanted to study abroad but my mom doesn’t think it’s economically possible. OO man.
I guess this is kind of the beginning of my life. Where I determine what kind of citizen I want to be. I still don’t know what I want to be, but I do know who I want to be. I always did. Free. Free from obligations, restrictions, time, and expectations and be open to a world I want to know. Am I going there? Or am I going to be stuck behind a 9-5 job looking and wishing I took another road. Answers are scarce when questions are great.
I’m pretty much over waste of time people. I know I address this topic way too often, but I am now addressing it in the post state: the excess friends are gone. I’m officially detached from the “fluff” friends and I really only have to see who I want to see now... well for the most part. It’s just so much less emotionally draining. Some people are just not worth knowing… they just take and take and take until there’s no more to take where they then complain. One only makes enough breath for themselves.
*rock on
*sarah*
I took the bartending course. Granted I’m not very motivated to look for any jobs, I am really glad I took the course. It just opened me up to so much! When I we went to Seaside and Albany I was pretty well known for the skills-but that is a story we’ll tell later.
Florida was amazing. Like every trip it had its ups and downs, but it’s ups were REALLY up (even though it’s downs were $700 down…). I broke free from my over a year hibernation and hooked up with 8 guys! I say that proud only because I am, and deserve to be. Primarily because I still got the V-Card, and I hooked up with some FINE boys: Craig-Drew-Chris-Dylan-Mike-Guilanno-Cristopho-Sam. All wonderful boys/men. Esp. Sam… lalalalaaaa!
Prom was good. I went with Desirae, and afterwards we went to Seaside where I played Bartender (1st skills)… whattup
We’re gonna skip to Albany now. It was fun. I made a couple of new friends that I think are going to turn into those people that I say, “Yeah we were friends in college”. I don’t know what I want to major in, and that scares me. I just feel like I am already behind and not even there yet. My courses kinda cover all grounds tho, Sociology (which I think I want to replace with psychology), Business Law (maybe a lawyer?), Creative writing (Writer?), and some classes on diversity explained in the media. Here’s the thing about my future… if I want to be a doctor, which would be dope, I need to take all those math classes and I SUCK at math! Sciences I’m pretty good at (except physics because IT’S A MATH CLASS) but math I am horrible and I hate it… if I want to be a lawyer there’s just mad studying to do. I think I’m kind of leaning towards lawyer just because it seems a lot more feasible. For example, I could major in English and still be able to fall back on being a teacher, I could make MAD money, math wouldn’t be THAT much of an issue and I could help people. The cool thing about being a doctor though is that there’s a lot more hands-on helping people that I think I would enjoy. Law just seems so much more corrupt… ahh idk. I should probably wait till college starts and see how it goes, but I was also thinking of taking summer classes. I wanted to study abroad but my mom doesn’t think it’s economically possible. OO man.
I guess this is kind of the beginning of my life. Where I determine what kind of citizen I want to be. I still don’t know what I want to be, but I do know who I want to be. I always did. Free. Free from obligations, restrictions, time, and expectations and be open to a world I want to know. Am I going there? Or am I going to be stuck behind a 9-5 job looking and wishing I took another road. Answers are scarce when questions are great.
I’m pretty much over waste of time people. I know I address this topic way too often, but I am now addressing it in the post state: the excess friends are gone. I’m officially detached from the “fluff” friends and I really only have to see who I want to see now... well for the most part. It’s just so much less emotionally draining. Some people are just not worth knowing… they just take and take and take until there’s no more to take where they then complain. One only makes enough breath for themselves.
*rock on
*sarah*